But just to make it short and simple,this week is by far one of the worst since i start schooling at sri sedaya.
Why u ask?
So many things happened.Among it is cause of my break up with my boyfriend,Caleb.
You guys must think.."Break up only ma..What's so big deal?"
Not a big deal to me but to me it is.
Cause my relationship with this guy is really special.Not just puppy dog love ok.
And the reason we broke up is cause of some blady fucking asshole which can't get a life of his/her own.
Going to school and seeing them is a pain in the ass.
Coming back home sucks as well.
Where can i go??
At one point i felt so lost.So afraid.So hurt.So scared.So insecure.
What am i gonna do if i lose yet again another important person to me?
Can i bear that pain again?
Even now no matter how deep i cut myself i dont' feel the pain.Not even till it bleed like shit.Now i understand why people cut themselves and at the same time not feeling any pain.
The emotional pain i'm feeling right now is nothing compared to the pain i get when i hurt myself.
Blah..
Sorry for boring you guys with this boring emo crap bout my life.But that's what's happening right now.
And i just wanna be honest and come clean.Telling the truth bout how i'm feeling and not just pretending to smile and seem all happy but in the inside i'm in pain.
