Counting Back On Time ♥

[Mood:Dissapointed]
[Listening to:Irreplaceable by Beyonce]

Day 13

My dad came back yesterday.End of my freedom days.-.-

Atleast he bought me presents.He bought me a toy monkey.It's soo adorable.And he also bought me a limited edition watch from Guess.When i receive those gifts i thought i would be like very happy but i wasn't.

I still remember last time when i bug the shit outta my mom to get me that watch.But now it's like nothing can actually make me feel happy again.

Finally i gotten my hp back.I think i'm gonna save my own money and buy my own hp.I don't wanna ask my dad to get me one anymore cause he'll just flip if i lose the phone again. X_o"

I was supposed to get my hair straighten today but did not make it.Hell i am dissapointed.

That means i'll have to wait for next week to get it done.ZzZz..

Wonder how'll tomorrow go?Wait for my updates..

-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
4:44 PM

[Mood:Bored
[Listening to:wo you wo de young by Fahrenheit]

Day 12

I'm still addicted to Fahrenheit's songs.Who wouldn't? XD

The time yesterday just sorta flew by.One minute i'm awake the next i'm already in my bed getting ready to go to my dream world again.Guess i was just too exhausted.

I've been really hoping that i get to go to YF Camp.I could have been able to go if my parents have not planned the vacation on that very week of the camp.Talk about great timing.

So i guess i can only go next year.Sorry yea Jin Xiang.I sorta trouble you recently.

The only thing to look forward to in December is just the camp and also Christmas.But now those plans are ruined also.Zzzz..

Not just that i have so many crap events to go to in December.Someone save me will you?

I guess i can just drag Jason along with me.Anyway he promised to accompany me anytime i want.^^

Talking bout taking Jason along i think i better let him know bout it now so he can get ready.

Ciao~

-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
1:05 PM

[Mood:Hyper/Embarassed]
[Listening to:Ai Qing by Aaron Kwok]

Day 11

Again sorry for not blogging for the past two days.I'm getting more and more busy till i have to limit my time online.

*Sobs*

Anyway let me update you guys on soemthing that happened recently.At least somewthing 'interesting' finally happened.

There's this person that i met in the game.This person seem very nice so we became friends.We exchanged no and all.I taught that person is a guy cause of the way hie talks and etc.

So things started to 'heat' up.-.-" You guys should get it.Please don't make me explain in further details.I'm already very embarassed.

So later on when i view that person's friendster profile only did i know that person is a girl and not just that she admits that she's a les!~

WtF?!

Haha..I damm malu..X_o"

Don't get me wrong ok.I have nothing agaisnt gays and lesbians.It's just that this whole thing seems so stupid.

Anyway like i said i had to cut short my time online cause i'm getting busier and busier so i'll stop here first.

-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
11:36 AM

[Mood: Excited]
[Listening to: Welcome To The Black Parade by MCR and We Ride by Rihanna]

Day 8

Sorry for not updating yesterday.Blogger won't allow me to do so.Anyway I'm kinda satisfy with the amount of piercing that i'm having now.I just got my ear pierced again yesterday.This time at another spot at my ear.I'm satisfy with the result.

I finally bought another 3 pairs of earrings for my other piercings.

4 pairs of earrings + piercing service =RM 50

Really cheap eh?

Sadly i don't think i get to go to the YF Camp at Genting this year.It just so happens that i have to go to Melaka on the next day of the camp.Sucks la wei..T.T

Whoa the news of me changing school next year spread damm fast man.I receive messages and testimonials from everyone asking me am i changing school.-.-"

Been really busy lately so if i did not reply any of your messages,testimonials and call you back i'm sorry yea..I promise i'll get back to you guys asap.^^

I'll upload some photos later.
-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
11:57 AM

[Mood: Bored/Sad]
[Listening to: Wo Hui Hao Hao De by Cyndi Wang]

Day 6

Started off my day with a swollen eye and an argument with mom.Great or what?

Again this time we argue is cause of my sister.Trouble-maker =S

I've finally made a promise with God as my witness.I promised that until the day i can officially tell everyone including myself that i no longer love Will only will and also till the day that i can forgive myself for all the things that i've done to hurt him and set things straight between us that only will i learn to open up and allow myself to love another guy again.

That's a promise that i'll hold on to till the day all this ends between us.And i also made a promise to never play and hurt anyone's feelings again.Like what Aishah said it's not fair for other people and i surely don't want the same thing to happen to me so i must not do it on others.

Aishah said she's glad that i can finally figure things out and learn to change for the better.tQ for all your support dear.^^

I'm still a noob in sdo so i need to train more..haha -.-

Ciao~

-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
1:30 PM

[Mood: Bored+Hyper?]
[Listening to:Fergalicious by Fergie]

Day 5

I decide to keep track of the days by posting the date on every post i made every single day.Keeping track of what you may ask?I'm keeping track of the days that i'm still holding on this relationship of mine.

I've gave it olots of thinking and i asked myself finally "If i really love this guy then why do i want to break up with him?"Cause if i really love a person i should be by his side all the time not just dumping him aside when things go wrong.And i also made up my mind that i'll never give up hope on this relationship again.I'm going to hold on to it till things end in the right way.

So if today we did not talk again that means it'll be the 5th day already.Get it now?=P

Anyway,since i'm always staying at home and rotting nothing much happened lately.Jin Xiang finally came yesterday to pass me the form for the YF Camp.I hope i get to go.Atleast it's better then going on some stupid holiday thingy with my family.Mom already said yes so it's up to dad right now..

I'm thinking of spending more time with Aishah as she'll be moving next month.T.T

I'm gonna miss ya for sure..

That's what i hate most about life.Certain things happen and you just can't do anything to stop it.

Anyway i was bored so i taught of calling Phoebe and Jin Xiang and catch up with them both.Looking forward to next Sunday.^^

Wonder what'll happen today?I had a feeling som,ething is gonna happen.I'll update later and see of something actually happened.

-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
10:30 AM

[Mood: Hyper]
[Listening to: 7 Li Xiang by Jay Chou]

I'm really addicted to chinese songs lately.Mostly it's because of very strong influence from him and his friends.If i did not talk to him today then it'll be the 4th day in a row again that we both did not talk.

I don't really blame him as i know that his having a very hard time right now and doesn't have enough time for himself.But as usual no matter how patience a person is there is always limits.

Last night i spent the night at home again talking to Aishah and Jason on the phone all night long.I don't think my dad's going to be too happy when the phone bill comes.

X_o"

I ate McD for dinner.Don't blame me i'm just sick of chinese food. +_+

I can't wait to hang out with Aishah,Phoebe,Jin Xiang and the rest next week.I'm sure it's gonna be fun with all of them around.Afterall it's a million times better then rotting at hoem right?Going out with them means time to snap lots and lots of pics!~ =P

Hoping i get to meet up with Jason later.Miss him alot.It's gaming time now..update more later..

-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
2:24 PM

[Mood: Sleepy]
[Listening to: Ai Mei by Rainie Yang]

I'm not really in the mood to blog right now so i'll just post a short one today.

I spent last night at home again watching tv while chatting with friends.My mom was shock to see me at home at night so often nowadays.I'm being more of a good girl already.(see what i mean aishah?) =P

Today woke up late and had to complete my "job" later on..

Talked to Phoebe and Jin Xiang.I was just too bored..

I think i'm gonna stop here first.Need to play SDO.Finally i downloaded it again.

X_o"

-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
2:03 PM

[Mood: Blurry]
[Listening to: tui hou by Jay Chou]

My mom woke me up so early today to go out for breakfast with her.8:30 a.m..Is that consider early to you?

Anyway like i said i have too much free time at home.And that means i have alot of alone time to stay at home and think,think,think of what am i going to do next.

I told my mom since i'm so free why not i go and get a part time job?Here's the convo between us.

Me : Mom,since i'm so free till i have nothing to do at home can i go and get a part time job?
Mom : Are you serious?
Me : Yea.Obviously i'm serious.Or else why am i asking you about it?-.-"
Mom : You gotta be kidding me.You are so lazy to even do anything at home and your telling me
you want to get a part time job?
Me : But that's different.Better of i go get a job then to rot at home right?At least i don't need
to ask you for money 24/7 right?
Mom :Aiya..how much can you earn only?
Me :How i know?If you want me to stay at home everyday and do nothing i will die sooner or
later le.. x_x
Mom :Ok la..Wait for your dad to come home then you tell him about it.
Me :o_O"

Yesterday JM a.k.a Sky message me.He ask me to go online.Why?So that when we chat he and his stupid friends can go come up with more bullshit to ask me?I don't think so.I told him my internet connection low so can't go online.Then he said he wanna call me but his credit running low.So i happily said "Its ok.I don't wanna disturb you working de.Bye~"

I taught that i'm free from him for one night at least but i was wrong.He and his stupid ass friends kept calling me.Dammit.I felt like changing no but i know that's not the right way outta this shit.So again i was very very patient with them,answering every single question that is thrown on me.

Here's one of teh convo between me and one of the guys.

SL :How long you and Will couple de?
Me:Hmmm..About 2 month+ de..
SL :Oh..icic..I heard that you are gonna break with him alreday.Is that true?
Me:(thinking how the hell he knows..must be from the super big mouth of his friends) Yea.It's
true.
SL :Why?Do you know that he loves you very much?
Me:(feeling guilty again..) Yea.I know.
SL :Then since you said you gonna break up with him what are you waiting for?
Me:(What the..) I can't break up with him know ok.He's having a lot of problem now.I can't be
that mean ok..
SL :Oh..Then can we get to know each other better?
Me:(WtF?!You can just go and fuck off) Err..Ok..
SL :You wanna hang out together?
Me:Sorry recently i'm very busy..(even if i'm free i rather be bored to hell then to hang out with
losers like you)
SL :(sounding dissapointed) Ok then..Tell me when your free ok?
Me:Ok sure..(yea..slowly wait la..not even in a million years) So did you guys gathered enough
money for Will already?
SL :Not enough yet.Need a few more thousand.
Me:Ok..I wish i could do something but there's nothing i can do at all.Sorry..

FYI:Will lost in gambling on football..(stupid right?) and owes people money.So now he's in
trouble and i can do nothing at all to help him.. :'(

SL :Nevermind..It's not your fault anyway.So..Let's talk about something else.Want to tell me
more about you?
Me:(heellloooo??My boyfriend's in so much trouble and am worried sick about him and now
your asking stuffs like that?That's your friend you idiot!!) Opps..sorry ya but i'm busy right
and my phone is running outta battery.I'll talk to you later ok?Bye..
SL :Ok la..Bye..take care ya..

(end of conversation with the jerk)

Even the tiniest bit of happiness is extracted from my facial expression.I just went straight to my room.tQ guys..for ruining another night for me which i would spend sitting in my room crying alone or finding solitude in Jason instead of spending the night out with friends drinking and having a good time.

Dammit all to hell..Seriously i need a time out or else i will explode one day. =(

Enough about what happen between me and those jerks already.Argh..Pms-ing now..sucks..spoil my mood only..

Feel hungry de..byee~~

-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
9:58 AM

[Mood: Depressed]
[Listening to: wo you wo de young by Fahrenheit]

I'm blogging again..=P

Guess i'm just too bored.I just finished watching the korean drama series.I just loooveee all this kinda show.My mom says i'm addicted to it.

o_O"

My dad just left to go offshore.He'll be away for a week.That means more freedom for me.But that also means i can only get my phone at the end of the week.Aikz..

I suddenly felt like taking maybe one or two weeks break and head over to somewhere quiet.Maybe Cameron Highlands and Genting Highland will be good.

I also taught of throwing a party.Since i won't be in the same school next year so i'm sure my dad won't mind.Afterall i'm gonna get even with him.My dad just smiled and nod his head at my idea.I know that the idea of me throwing a party made him sick.Cause i'm the kinda person that wants perfection to everything.That means lots of ka-ching ka-ching!!~My mom just laugh seeing my dad's expression.

Rachel gave me the last episod of the comic that i'm reading.Thanks yea~~She says that it will be my farewell present.

All my friends are trying to make me feel better when they heard that i'll have to change school next year.Thanks u guys.i appreciate it.

Holidays have not even officially started since my school declare holiday earlier and i'm already rotting here at home.

I still have not figure out what colour to highlight my hair.Opinions anyone?Jin Xiang said i should try red with copperbrown.hmm..Nice combo.I ask him what colour goes well with purple to him.He said pink.-.-"

I wonder what's gonna happen tonight with him and his friends.Well of course i did not expect anything good to happen when it has something to do with them.I felt like closing my eyes and screming my heart out everytime when the taught of me having to face them again come across my mind.

(takes a deep breath...)

I hope things won't be that awkward tonight.I'll just keep in mind that i'm doing all this for him.Including bearing with his stupid assholic friends.How can such a nice person have such stupid friends?Their english sucks and not all of them can read english that well so even if they sees this which i know for sure they won't it doesn't matter^^.Actually i wish they can read this so they'll know how much i hate them now.

Did not play SDO for a few days already.My fingers are not doing justice for me.T.T

Opps!~I'm late and i need to go get ready for tonight.

Byee for now..

-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
4:46 PM

My fav korean drama re-run is going on in half an hour.So meanwhile why not go online and update my blog on what happen this morning.

As usual i was still awake at 3 a.m and i had to call Sky(this is not his real name ok.)At first our convo is kinda ok but then things just had to turn bad.

I mean why can't he and his friends learn to shut up for once?

They know i couple with their friends already and they still go crap so much for what?Seriously at that moment i really hated them so much.Why must they say such hurting stuffs to my face?I know that's the way you guys talk but still it hurts ok.Don't get me wrong they never say insulting things to me like "You asre stupid " and all but they kept on talking about bullshit!

And they also know that i'm gonna break up with Will sooner or later.So can they just shut up?The worst part is that i have to sit there and smile,smile,smile to them and act like nothing they say hurt me at all.I wish you guys will go drown yourself in all the horrible things you said.Can i scream now?

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

tQ.I feel much better. =)

So i think why should i shut up and let you guys continue crapping?So i gathered up all the courage i had in me and said something that will shut them up for awhile.Then i told him i'm running out of credit and just hang up before he can say anything else.

I felt so much better after telling him what he deserve to hear all this while.Ok.Lets move on.At night i talked to Jin Xiang.At least he made me feel better not worse unlike someone.There's this
YF camp in December.Its a four days trip.It surely will be fun.At least i can escape from all the family holiday trips in December.You saved my life again.haha..thx yea..=D

My show is starting already.Will continue tonight.Ciao~

-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
3:13 PM

Finally i had the time to sit here and blog after a long,tiring and definetly a day full of shit and tears.Maybe again today is not my day as well.Fuck it.

Today my dad brought me to the phone dealer where i bought my phone from.The guy said i had to leave my phone there at the shop so they can repair it bla bla bla..

So obviously i was very very dissapointed.The look of dissapointment is so clearly shown across my face.Then i went to the salon to meet my mom and sister while my dad n grandma went to shop.I just don't get it.She's so old already still want to buy branded clothes for what?Its not like anyone will notice it.

I told my mom i wanted to straighten my hair now.She said it's better if i get it done next week.So i got even more fustrated after that.Suddenly my mom ask me if i wanna highlight my hair again.At that moment i was just so dissapointed and sad that i did not say anything and just look at her.

She said i could get all of it done next week.But the hairstylist there,Alex,told me that the latest hair style now is like those kinda crimp type.All the hairstylist in the shop is having the same hairstyle now.So i taught why not i straighten my hair and get some of it crimp?That would be a good change for me.After all my hair now is too good girl look alike.After that i'll highlight it purple and red i guess.Alex said if i wanna highlight my hair two colours will look better.

So that means i'll have about 5-6 days to think about what am i gonna do with my hair.But still i look really dissapointed.Everyone noticed that and said nice stuffs to make me feel better but honestly nothing helped even one tiny bit.My phone is a part of me and i'll have to part with it for God knows how long.Meanwhile i have to use another phone.It really sucks alot.

I went home and my dad just had to break the news to me at such a terrible time.I mean c'mon doesn't the adults knows anything about timing?He told me that he have decided to change me to Sri Sedaya school next year.I just stood there stunt.I wanted to open my mouth and speak but nothing comes out.Then he ask me is it ok i just stood there and stare at him.It was like an awkward silence between us.So i just walked away from there and head straight to my room.

I mean i'm not saying that i have anything about going to that school and the fact that i hate my current school (SMK USJ 4) cause this place is full of crappy people and lots of assholic teachers.But why do you have to tell me that now?Among all the other time?Why now?!I dunno why but the second i lock the damm door of my room and my tears just feel down.At first i don't even know the reason i'm crying.Then i realise that i'm going to a new school,meeting new people,starting out all over again.That means i'll be crawling outta my warm and comfy spot to somewhere new.Gr-rrr-eatt..Just can't wait.

After crying i don't even care anymore about which fucking school am i going to next year.I think maybe it is a good idea after all.I can be free of all the crappy people and those assholic teachers.Sri Sedaya is a very good school and i can concentrate more on my studies as i'll be having PMR next year.The schooling time is from 8a.m.-3.30p.m.That leave me with less time to do other things which i kinda good in a way.Come home,bath,sleep,dinner,tv,homework,sleep.Good planning eh?

Cause my bro and sis goes to the same school and their homework is like a huge load!I seriously mean it.And they are both in primary 1 and 6 only.Go figure yourself.

I'm a mess right now and the more things i have to do the better.At least i can keep my mind off things.I taught of taking up a part time job as well to fill up my time during this holiday.Then i'll have less time to think about him and his friends.

So now i'll have to bear with my phone not with me and also the fact that he is in great danger.The worst part is that i can't be at his sight when he needs me to be there for him.I can only pray for his safety and hopefully all this shit will end soon.

May God bless you Will..

-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
9:16 PM

Today was really suckyyy...when i say really sucky i really do mean it.
Apart from the fact that i've been having lack of sleep all the time (i'm not really complaining ok) and that i'm having problems with my boyfriend everything else isn't going that well either.

It's like everyone is starting to get on my nerves.Including my family members.And my boyfriend.I mean WtF?!No matter how busy you are it surely won't hurt you to just take a few minutes to call or sms me right?I've been trying to tolerate as much as i can but seriously this time i can't take it anymore.

And finally today i've finally had the courage to do what i think i should do.Which is to break up with him.I taught of talking to him about it first and telling him that i'll give him 1 more day time to think about how he's gonna spend his time and if he still can't sort things out then..

The thing that pissed me off the most is when i tried to call him and he did not answer or return any of my calls.I know his busy and all and maybe his prepaid line no more credit or watever but still..

Then i had to call Ah Xian and ask is he there.Just my luck i guess but he's not there.Then later on his friends miss call me.So i had to call back.So smart la those guys.Ah Xian said his friends wants to know me.So we just chatted.It's kinda awkward at first cause they asked me crap then they start passing the phone around.Soon i'm talking to like so many people i have no idea who are all of them.And i m just too lazy to ask all of them what's their name age bla bla bla..

It's so much easier for them to know my name cause they're all talking about me ever since the day Will know me.The stupid part is that when they all know that Will is my boyfriend and they still ask "Do you have a boyfriend?"My reply was short and simple."Yes". Then they are like "Oh.Is it Will?" I wanted to tell them "DUH!!Since you know already then you ask for what?Stupid" Instead i said patiently "Yes.It's Will."

Not trying to say that i'm not happy talking to them and all but it's just that i'm rally emo at that moment so i can get really crappy and all. Of Cause i like to talk to them.Somehow they can always make me laugh and smile no matter what.=D

I'm sorry if you guys have to read all this emo crap that i'm posting but that's just pretty much what's going on at this moment so i just hope things will get better soon..=)

I saw Cheong Tat on9..It's not always he get to go on9.I really really pity him sometimes.His projects seems like it's neverending...

Well tonight's the big showdown.All you bloggers out there wish me luck yea!!~

-Joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
3:44 PM

Attention to all you people out there who reads my blog.If you guys like what your seeing at my blog currently then tQ very much.And for those of you who don't like reading my blog then just don't read it.FYI i never posted a huge sign above my blog saying please read my blog or watsoever.If you want to read it then go ahead if not then just leave.Cause here at my blog i dare to bare it all.The good and the bad that's happening in my life.And in conjunction with that i had a bitchy encounter with someone.Read on..

Seriously yesterday really wasn't my day.Things after things go wrong.It's like nothing at all seems to go right.So i'm sure you can just guessed it.It just spoiled my mood for the whole day.The worst part is that my phone is keep on testing my patience.i mean c'mon just gimme a break ok.I had to ask my dad to get me a new phone again.And meanwhile i had to use another phone.That seriously sucks.

But thank God i've recover much and my mom allow me to go out at nite again.I just can't imagine myself staying at home at nite for the next 2 months.I seriously can just die of boredom.And i decide to go lesser at nite next year cause i'll be having PMR.So i'm gonna enjoy myself now.=P

Actually after all the things which didn't go right for me today i decide better off to stay at home.While i was in my room watching tv suddenly my mom came up to my room saying a friend of mine came.i was suprised cause i didn't expect anyone over.So i went downstairs to the living room.My so-called friend is someone i have never meet before.Argh..At that moment i had a feeling telling me that something is not right.And whenever i had those feelings things always did turn out the very way i felt.

I hate that feeling.Anyway the girl introduce herself as Janice.She asked me if i know another guy name Jason Lim.I said yes.Then she said i must be Joanne.Again i said yes.She said we both need to talk so she ask me to go out with her to somewhere private to talk.I said ok since staying at home was just a bore anyway.Looking at her (Janice) she must at least be 19.Considering the fact she can drive already as well.

It was like really awkward being in the car with a stranger i barely know except for her name.She drove us to her house.i'm like "Uh oh."It seems that there are people there at her house expecting our arrival.When i step in everyone eyes land on me.It's so awkward.Argh..Janice ask me to sit down and she said "I don't wanna waste your time and my time here so i'm gonna get straight to the damm point.Did you go around bitching to other people about us?And did you go steal my friends boyfriend?"I'm like"First of all i don't even know who you are.And second of all i'm never interested in other girls guys.So please don't just come right up to me and blame me."I sat there quietly for a few minutes while they talked.So later on they start talking again and asking me crap.Like WtF?!How many times must i say to get it into your stupid brain?

Finally they give up asking me cause they know i'll just give them the same answer.Which is what i'm gonna do.Suprisingly Janice apologise to me after that.She said "I'm sorry for being really rude to you.We just wanna find out who's been doing all this shit.I mean spreading rumours about us and all.Those people are totally trying to ruin our rep.I mean if we find out who those bitches are they're screwed up.If you know anyone who did this tell us ok?" "Ok."is what i replied."Let me make this up to you.You seem like a really nice person and we're sorry bout just now.Let's go get a drink and we'll get to know each other better."At least Janice knows how to say sorry.Unlike Mei Yen.So bitchy.It's her fault and she refuse to admit.It's her stupid idea to come and find me.But if it wasn't for her stupid idea i wouldn't get to know Janice,Alex and the rest.Although i regret meeting Mei Yen but still..

I don't even care if you read this cause i know you''ll read it.Janice say she wanna stay updated with whats happening with me.I'm being kind here by not posting your photo here and let everyone see it.So please learn to shut your fucking big mouth up and stop telling lies about me.FYI even if i flirt with whoever that is my business not your so shut up and mind your own business bitch.As long as i'm not flirting with anyone that belongs to you then it's none of your concern.And if you see me constantly off9 you should be smart enough to know that i've block u.(I hate you Mei Yen) (Fuck off and get a life of your own and leave mind alone) (You Bitch)

i think that's enough info for the main time.will update more soon.

-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
9:55 AM

yesterday i skipped school again.i decide to go cc with shana.then we meet up at aishah's house.aishah got really lazy and then decide to come with us as well.so we went to cc and as usual i played SDO.he came online as well and talked to me in SDO.i'm suprised cause i taught he will be too lazy even to play the game.FYI this is another person.not my other boyfriend.so please don't misunderstand.
i played a few games with him and then i deicide to play with my jie instead.much better.i didn't feel so tired yesterday when i was at the cc.funny eh?~there was this chinese guy i think he's older then me,he came and sat at the empty space beside shana.suddenly i saw he and shana talking so i was like kinda blur cause i didn't know they know each other.but i did not ask shana how she know him and all there cause he could have just heard our convo and it would be rude.

they both seem to get along together pretty well.at one point its SO obvious that he's flirting with shana.eww..everyone's starring at the him so just imagine how obvious it is.then the guy who's working at the cc walk pass us to check on everyone.i turn and saw him.then when he walk past he he reverse and came back to us.he said"did that guy there disturb you girls?"i wanted to say"yes,he did and he can't stop flirting and disturbing my friend so please come and drag him away",but i did not.instead me and shana just said "no.he wasn't disturbing us".the guy then said "if he disturb you all tell me."then he face the guy "don't disturb the girls.they wanted to play as well".
tQ so much to the big guy.i taught after that he would leave shana alone but hell am i wrong.he flirted even more after that.WtF?!~tak tau malu la he.he keep on asking shana to play dota.so she did.but its like so obvious she doesn't like it and yet he still force her to play.i really pity her.what an ass...anyway aishah had to leave early cause her dad ask her to get home.so after playing and i started to get tired and hungry we both decide to leave.we went to apollos to get something to eat but there's only one more store that's open.
so we ate then rushed to aishah's house to change.on the way to aishah's house we used the "lorong" way.i meet aishah's bro and his friends there.i wish they could just shut up and let me pass but they had to say something.they kept on whistling at me.that is so gross ok.we changed and went back to school.on the way i meet azwan.he skipped as well.but then he told me he just came out early and its his first time doing such a thing.he succeeded!~congrats azwan~~=P
i had to re-download again SDO after my stupid bro deleted it for me.o_O"so here i am blogging away while waiting for the download to complete which is still hours away.i'm gonna fall asleep already so i'll stop here first.Ciao~

-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
11:19 AM

i taught yesterday it would be more fun but i'm wrong.i went to cc with shana and aishah.i played SDO.normal la..but honestly i dunno why but i didn't enjoy myself that much while playing it.one of the main reason is cause i'm very tired i guess.and while i'm playing it i can't keep my mind off him.i kept on thinking and thinking about him.
i made another few more new friends again.and that includes a guy if your wondering.the guy's super nice.but why am i not feeling the kind of happy feeling when i'm talking to him?i feel so stupid even allowing myself to fall for him in the first place.there are so many other guys out there but i picked him..
i tried before to forget him by getting another boyfriend which then end up with me having four boyfriend..trust me tis not easy handling four guys at one time.and at that time i'm so sick but i still have accompany all four of them.u guys wanna know the whole story then go ask my friends.they know.later on i dump two of them.i felt bad but i had to do it somehow.again i'm apologizing to you Ivan and also to you Al.
i know i'm a total jerk for doing that.but don't forget i warned you guys already that i'm just fooling around with you guys.and you guys still did not mind.so this whole thing is not just my fault alone ok.i wish i could try to make things better but i don't think things will get nay better already.
btw i got any new boyfriend yesterday.i'm sure by now you guys won't be suprised eh?~but no matter what its still so hard to feel the happiness that i felt everytime i talk to him.just hearing his voice makes a whole lot of difference.some of my jie say that i should just let him go.that we are not meant to be together.i tried and tried but i really can't!that time where he had to leave m'sia and move to stay at s'pore my tears just feel down when i heard that from him.i taught that all the sweet times we haad together had finally come to an end.i cried continously for a few days in a row.my eye was really sore @_@
all my friends did everything they could think of but nothing helped.and finally its like a miracle actually happen again in my life.his mom finally allow him to stay here in m'sia with me.no one can understand the joy i felt at that moment.its even better then winning a million bucks.but thing still weren't as easy as you think after that.please don't mind me but i just wanna express my feelings here.that's all.and yet i'm still holding on to this relationship.there's once where i almost wanna break with him.but the words won't come outta my mouth.Y??is dat what people say "the power of love"??
one thing though i never regret knowing him at all.he was the one who gave me happiness,secureness and everything else that a girl wants and needs from her boyfriend.OmG..someone please help me.i'm so lost and confused.what should i do next?and also not forgetting ke ming.what am i going to do about him?OmG..i felt like dieing now..now i can just turn to God and seek advice from Him.
i'm gonna stop here before i start going all emo again.going out today.will keep you guys updated.

-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
11:00 AM

Ouch!~my head freaking hurts today.i took another two more panadols.i can feel its starting to take its effect now.aishah bet that i'll have hangover today.ZzzZ..
last nyte i went out to my friend's house making a deal with my mom that i won't drink and i'll call her if i'm coming home later then 12am.
so my friend came and fetch me then minutes later i find myself at her house.well i taught when my freind say its just a small gathering of friends i taught she really mean it.but boy am i wrong.when i step inside the house i'm like o_O"

the house's packed full.i really mean it.1/2 of it is filled with people that i've never even meet before.small gathering..yea ryte..but the best part about parties like this is that i get to meet new people..make new friends..thank God yesterday i'm already feeling so much better or else i'll surely miss this so called "gathering" thingy..
half an hour later people are all starting to get in the "mood" already.smokes filled the air-condition air and making our breathing air turn into smells of ashtrays.people around me started to get high.bottles after bottles of vodka is pop..beer cans scattered everywhere across the floor.what an amazing sight to see.if my dad sees this he'll come there and drag me home.imagine if he finds out if there's pills too..

i just can't resist the temptation to have a sip of vodka.since i've fallen sick my mom didn't allow me to touch any of those until i recover.i can't blame her anyway.i've been throwing up alot and having stomach aches that made me stay up all nyte long.so my sip of vodka led me to having a bottle of it then to two bottles and finally before i decide to get i third bottle i manage to stop myself.while drinking vodka i down two pills.one of it's pink the other's white.my friend said that the effect is only good enough when you take both of it together.so i'm thinking why not?~then i just remember making a complete fool outta myself by kissing someone.no need to mention it here.the next thing i know is that hours later my friend send me home.my mom was waiting up for me.opps!~i forgotten to call her.and she found out that i've been drinking.

that's so not good.my mom totally screwed me.well it's my falut for doing that anyway.then she kept quiet.there was this awkward silence between us.just as she's about to screw me again i ran to the bathroom and puke.argh...it sucks..i remember scolding myself for being so so stupid.i'm still sick and having stomach ache and i still go and drink.can i be anymore stupid?my mom gave me two aspirins and told me to go to bed.i know she's gonna screw me again tomorrow.
i went up to my room and flop down on my bed.just then aishah call me.after that all i remember was waking up this morning with a bad headache.i mean i didn't drink that much ryte?

i'm getting sleepy again and i need to get ready for skol so ciao!~

-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
11:19 AM

*yawnZ*i'm feeling so sleepy.yet i still wanna blog.guess i was just too bored.
o_O" my stomach hurts suddenly.aikzz..why must it hurt now?Dammit.just my luck i guess..
i decide to spend more time at home today but the plan was canceled last minute.i end up going out with friends instead.BUT i just hang out with my friend for less then 5 hours so it doesn't count.err...ryte?=P

at least i'm feeling much better today.i had to watch every single thing i eat.well,honestly that sucks you know.its like when you feel like eating something that came to your mind but then suddenly you realise you just can't cause you need to watch whatever that's going into your stomach.

i finally felt bored today.weird eh?i taught of messaging cheong tat.its always fun to talk to him cause he can always make me laugh.but i guess my laziness forbid me from doing so.

i really need to talk to my jie ryte now..i hope we get to hang out soon..i'm thinking about you ryte now baby.i miss you sooo much..

btw to those out there who somehow manage to get my no and i still have no idea how but please stop disturbing me.cause..

1) i'm taken and loving it
2) i'm not interested in getting to know such desperate people.
3) i don't kiss and tell so fuck off

and also please stop stalking me.its beginning to get scary you know.and i'm trying to be really really nice here so don't cross the thin barrier line that seperates it all or i can get really nasty with you.also please don't keep on passing around my no to your friends.you know who you are.its not funny ok.calling me 5+ in the morning?that's getting annoying ok.

anyway think i'm gonna stop here first.

till then..

-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
10:23 PM

the above are faces of the bastard that i've mention in my blog.take a good luck.

i think this is my third time blogging today..hmmm..yupp..its the freaking third time i'm blogging for today.=D
ouch!~=S
my stomach has been hurting really badly for the whole freaking day.Dammit.each time i ate the stupid medicine given by the gay doctor,my stomach just hurts more and more.whats the point of the the damm medicine and making myself suffer more instead??pointless ryte?
i taught of seeing another doctor but..that means i'll have to take MORE medicine.that sounds like torture to me.my prayer is answered by God when he did take the time to accompany me.casue as i have said earlier,if he doesn't..i dunno what other excuse can i give to convince myself for giving him another chance.talking to him does make me feel so much better.

btw,guess wat happened just now?there's this person that has been miss calling me for a few days.then just now i got fed up of that person for miss calling me and interupting my sleep and message that person.
the person reply saying he is AEMIE.i do know him as he's the totally gay loser that wants to pikat my friend at first.and he hasn't given up now.he ask me if i can call him.the reason?is cause he wants to get to know me better personally.ewww..WtF?!although when he ask me do i have a bf and i said no but like so what?
he wanted to pikat my friend at first and know he's after me again?i totally hate guys like that.total losers!~i felt like telling him he can just fuck of to hell but i taught better of it instead.i told my friend about it asap.and we both think that revenge is the best.i mean what kinda loser is that?he ask for couple from me and my friend??!

imagine if i tell my kor or bf about it he'll be so screwed up.he's 21 this year but he's so not mature at all.he's acting like an asshole instead.arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!i'm getting more and more pissed.i can't believe me and my friend actually pitied him and taught of being friens with him at first.i so totally regret for being nice.Dammit to hell.i'll include a photo of him so you can see his oh-so-cute-player face.enjoy~~

Boy , I Love You .
9:40 PM

i'm bored..so i taught why not blog again?
as i'm blogging now i'm messaging with cheong tat.at least chatting with him makes me laugh.i need that.hey at least its better then feeling sad ryte?
my fever came back again.i'm feeling hot and cold at the same time.argh..hate it~

i talked to him last nyte.bout 1+ in de morning.he's working again..as usual..but this time i manage to let him know how i felt deep down in my heart all this time.i taught things are not gonna be the same anymore.things can either take a turning to the bad site or the good site.but thank God things went to the good site.i'm so glad that i finally told him how i felt all these while bout him not spending enough time to accompany me.
i even taught of breaking up with him before this but i just can't do it.when he called me that day the words just can't come outta my mouth.that shows that i really really do love him.i hope that after what i told you last nyte you will split your time propperly.i'm not trying to be selfish or anything but those out there who has been in a serious relationship before should know what i mean.the power of love..amazing ain't it?

gonna stop here now..

till then..

-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
1:14 PM

sori for not blogging yesterday.i was just so sick and tired i don't even have enough energy to walk from my room to my living room.just try to imagine how tired i m..
i don't even have any appetite to eat at all.each time i see,taste or hear people talking about food i felt all nausea..
my mom has been baby-ing me this few days.she also has been tolerating me..ALOT.
i didn't really get much sleep yesterday nite from the result of waking up like so many times until i lost count.it really suck u know.
i also had to message so many people.all this people just don't get it do they?i'm so sick.i need some time alone to rest.is that too much to ask for?you know who you are.

at least i finally got some sleep.i turn off my phone.when my mom came into my room she asked me do i need prepaid cards anot?so i said let me check my credit balance first.then i had to switch back on my phone.my mom was suprised when i did that.she said that she was suprised i ever off my phone cause she says my fon is beeping all de time.o_O"
thx mom..
anyway on friday skipped school again and went to aishah's house.suddenly i got fever.great timing~~
i was so cold.then later shana came.we went to ENS later to meet with jin xiang.he came late.why m i not suprised??
anyway later on hang around then he accompany me back to school.he look really tired.
X_o"

went home and bath.i wanted to go to bed asap but i had to go and see doctor first.more medicine to take..
came home.went to bed.i didn't have appetite to eat anyway.if i do i'll puke.eww..surely i don't want that to happen.
i lost the mood to go out.even shopping doesn't make me feel excited anymore.
well..i'm tired already.i thnk i better stop here and go get some rest.
will update later.

till then..

-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
12:37 PM

i skipped school yesterday and planned to go to cc with aishah.jin xiang can't make it cause of some reasons.then later aishah told me that sheila,mariah and nana are joining us.fine with me.i agreed to meet aishah at her house and guess what when i went there her bro told me she went to school de.o_O"
then thank god i saw her and mariah at de lorong to school.then we went into school to find ellia.had to sign the stupid guestbook although we are students of the damm school itself.stupid ryte?..
mariah came up with a totally interesting name."Marianna"..what ya'll think?
sadly after all time we wasted we didn't find ellia so we decide to go.after dat we went to sheila's house.she has a nice house.we changed n head to cc.the cc was quite pack already but lucky us we got ourselves a seat for each of us together in a row.but..sadly we have to sit just ryte outside the damm toilet.its so smelly u noe~~
everytime someone open the door we have to bear with the smell.ewww...
so not sitting there again -.-"

i spent most of my time playing SDO.^^
but i got cut off suddenly cause my time is up.SobSob..T.T
later on went and yam cha at ens.dunno who brought up de topic bout "batu karang"..nana and aishah kept on disgusting me,mariah and sheila..
Damm ya'll..i felt lyk puking hearing them talk..
after that went back again to sheila's house to change.fool around a bit then went back to school.went i went home yesterday i felt so tired i wish i could just go to bed but i can't cause i need to watch my fav show^^

guess wat?instead of sleeping early i end up sleeping really late.3+ in the morning.was busy sms-ing many ppl.typical eh?

today maybe planning to meet with jin xiang.if he ffk me this time,i'll...

will stop here first.update later yea..

till den..

-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
11:27 AM

as usual school yesterday was nothing but a total boring process.aishah didn't come to school.lucky her.just imagine.i got so bored that i decide to skip de other half of school with shana and nana.caroline said she wanted to follow us but she backed out last minute.o_O"

saw daryl,royston,rab and guy which i forggoten the name.if your reading this sorry yea?~~
me,nana and shana just walk out de school gate and the stupid guasrd just stared at us and didn't say a word at all?...

on de way out we walked past de basketball court.guess who's there?yup.all the bitches and bastards are there.for those of you who happen to be at the basketball court at de momoent please don't "terasa" if you know your not that kinda person.

i also saw the chinese form 2 boys playing with...fire?..childish eh?anyway i don't care cause after all its none of my business ryte?..=P

we went to de bakery and bought a drink each.i just can't resit de temptation to buy myself a cool drink while i sit n read all 3 mags dat i've just bought from de mag store nearby.the wheather here in m'sia is just way too hot~~

later on went back to school and meet wif rachel and melissa.steffi came later on.

btw remember in my previous post i said that i'll be giving him a whole week?..well yesterday was suppose to be day 2.at nyte i can't sleep early so as usual my mind is all full with taughts of him.i just can't take it anymore at that very moment.i just sms him.honestly i didnt him to reply cause usually he'll be busy working at dat time(1a.m) in the morning.but guess wat?God has finally answered my prayers.yup.he replied me.i also found out the reason he didn't msg me yesterday.
i hate to admit it but aishah your ryte.dun rub it in my face plz..he was really busy with work.and like wat they say.."he has not done anything to betray my trust in him so i don't have the right to suspect him.he trusts me and he also deserves my trust in return"..

but basically things are getting better between us already.there's so much going on lately for me but i'm lucky enough to find time to blog^^

till den~~

-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
11:06 AM

yesterday skol is so damm boriiingg..de teachers didnt even care wateva de shit we wanna do.wats de point of goin to skol den?didnt c waheeda at skol yesterday.who noes maybe i'm lucky maybe she got kidnap n they've killed her ade?~~hehe..but sadly reality check no one wants to kidnap her.she so ugly n big hu wan to kidnap her?
at least shaun can fit into de car boot nicely but half of her oso cant fit inside.
X_o"
mean m i?fuck it,sory but i dun give a damm.

spent de day reading mangas instead.forgotten to bring my fon.went home n feel super tired.i just wish i cud bath n go straight to bed.nice eh?

instead i bath,ate den watch tv.my fav show is ending soon..SobSob..T.T

i didnt talk to him for de whole day yesterday.if he's not making de effort den y shud i bother to waste my time ryte?i haf decide to give him 1 week time.if by den he still doesnt sort things out properly n manage his time well enuff..den i'll just let him noe its over between us.i didnt want things to end dis way but i haf no choice n i cant take it anymore.well..i can oni wait n c wat happens now..

need to get ready for skol..no idea y m i going..till den..

-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
11:30 AM

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