Let me just cut it all short ok.Well as you see i was blogging todya using the school's computer (twice) and twice itselft the computer just blackout cause of a lose wire.All thanks to Chris.
Anyway like i was saying..
Some blady ass opened my locker and my friends and our books were missing.
We went and look for Mr.Shasi but on the way we (unfortunetly) meet Mr.Lee and he interfer in it.
The very next day he went and make a stupid announcement during the mornign gathering at he lobby and said that student should not open people's locker and take theri stuffs and yada yada..
And he mentioned that this message is specially to form 5 student.There was a load uproar from the form 5 boys.
I don't blame them for that.So we went back to class and Jone and Justin came to our class and look for us.
He told us that the locker thing has nothing to do with them at all.We were not in a mood so we just slam the door in their face and Jone held back the door.He look at us and walk away.
Urgh..
So its obvious already from that very moment that SOMEONE was obviously backstabbing us.
And we kinda know already who it is.So later on i went and talk to Justin and we agree to meet up during lunch.
During luch we all ather outside the cafeteria.Our group do attract lots of attention.
After discussing we found out that it indeed wasn't Justin's fault.
So sorry yea..-.-
BUT we also found out that there's someone backstabbing us making us dislike each other so much all this while.
I just don't ge tit with this people some times..
So i told her to meet us during lunch time and a look of panic spread across her face.
So aat last lunch period came and we talked bout it.I was being super nice to her ok!But she's shouting back at me.
WTF?!
I was so pissed you know..
At last my anger reached at its boiling point and i snap back at them.That shut them out for awhile.
So we still can't settle it and she kept denying what she said/did so just as i taught of finding Justin,he passed by.
I called him and he was like so blur!
So he came over and i told him that that's the girl that spread the rumours about us.He look at her and called me over to talk privately asking in detail what hapen and so on.
Then we discuss and he talked to her.A bit like telling her to stop spreading rumours all.And guess what?
She started to cry!!!!
And her friend take that excuse to pull her away..
Me and Justin stood there..stunned..
It seems now like its OUR fault.
wtfff?????
i damm pissed at that moment..
So i scolded Joey,Sabrina and Pei Yi.They are suppose to be helping also but they kept fooling around.
I was so pissed i did not talk to them till just now.They kept appologising in all imaginable ways but i was shaking with anger.
But later on Mei Jin appologise and i cool down a bit.
On the way back i saw him**we bid goodbye.i was in a hurry.wish i could hang around longer to chat.
Somehow seeing him smile makes me forgetaout everything else and feel more relieved.
Is it true what i'm feeling for you this time?
Boy , I Love You .
9:39 PM
♥ Monday, January 22, 2007
[Mood:Smiling with hapiness from inside out?] [Listening to:
Well atleast i've got some happy stuff to blog bout in this post.
Found out from Miss Chuah my Maths teacher that she wants the Mtahs project today.A look of panic immediately spread across the faces of the four of us.Me,Sabrina,Joey and Elizabeth.
We went and plead with her and she was nice enough to let us hand it in the first thing tomorrow morning.We were happy at first only then did i realise that we had very little time left to complete it together.
Teacher gave us half an hour to discuss it but we end up discussing nothing much cause with Joey and Sabrina around there's just bound to be lots of silly jokes and laughter.
So we decide to stay back.Me and Sabrina had to persuade Joey and Elizabeth for what seems like forever.They said they were too lazy to stay back. =.="
So i tried to call my mom for like a billion times but no one answered the phone.It's just super annoying.I need to talk to her at that very moment and she's not picking up the phone.
Urgh..
So everyone called their parents except for Joey and me.Miss Chuah decide to ask me to write a note for my mom and sign it.Thanks so much..
So i went and pass the note to my sister.Her classmates are all so cute.So are their classroom.Super colourful.
Then the decision was made and Bowie would come and fetch us to Sunway Pyramid and back.
Joey does not want to stay back..
So when school ends me,Sabrina and Elizabeth went and search for Bowie's car.We walked around teh whole school compound but could not find his car..lolx..
I told him to hon but i can only hear it through the phone and at last we found him.On the way we meet the asses..
So climbed into Bowie's car and only realise that suat ying has left.Went to look for her but she's no where to be seen..
Time wasted for nothing..
So off we went to Sunway.Got caught in the traffic jam for awhile.
Finally reached Sunway Pyramid and spent some time looking for car parks.
At last we found one but its quite far away and we had to walk quite far.We were still in our school uniforms.Except for me and Bowie.I was still,obviously still wearing a t-shirt and jeans as my unifrom's just arrived today.Joey said she can't wait to see how i look in the new uniform.That means he'll get to see it too..Oh great..
All hell break lose as the four of us raided Pyramid.
We were suppose to go and shop for stationeries only but all the other stuffs there caught our attention.
We were like bits of metal being pulled to various shops that caught the attention of our eyes.@_@
Anyway we did not bought anything else and head straight to MPH.Quickly bought some colour A4 papers and colour pens and left.Then we wanted to go get something to eat.The thing is that we just can't decide.
Sabrina at last wanted to go get hot dogs so i suggested we go but from the stall outside near starbucks.The place there is bigger and had more sitting places.More comfortable also.
But then Bowie ask if that's gonna be our dinner or snack and since me and Sabrina said that's gonna be our dinner he asked us to go to a proper restaurant and have a decent meal.Before we could say anything else he also said he'll be paying.lolx..
Some and Bowie decide to go to Secret Recipes.Everyone agreed.
Everyone in the shop starred at us as we enter the shop.. -.-
Me and Sabrina ordered a plate of seafood macaroni to share while Bowie order a lamb chop and a piece of cake.
Elizabeth said she just wanted to drink.We ate,laugh,talk,and laugh again.We had so much fun.It's such a great break from what we've all been going through for all this time.Something that all of us needed very badly and we got it.
Thank you Lord..
After that we went and snap photos.Had a great time there as well..
Then we went and shop for soem stuffs for memories.Finally we decide to get 5 phone straps of a cute little cat for each one of us and Joey.
We then rush to the car and headed out asap.
The three of us wonder what's our mom's gonna say.Freak probably..And i was in the worst situation.I never even call her.Just handed her a note.
The faster we wanna get home the slower it is for us.The traffic was just sooo heavy!~
Chatted more in the car.Bowie sent me home first as my house's the nearest one there..XD
As Bowie drop me off at my house i bid good bye to everyone and walk in teh house with a heavy heart.
Just as i got home i went and search for my mom.I taught she'll be mad but she wasn't.Instead she talk to me in a rather sweet tone and ask mewhy did i stay back in school.I then explain to her the reason i stayed back.
Yesh!!~~
I taught i'll have another row with my mom for the third day in arow but thank god sooo much it did not turn out that way.
Praise the Lord!
My heart was so relieved and i was just openning my bag for my maths book when i've realised i've left it in the car.I grab my phone and dialled Sabrina's no but as i did so i saw her outside of my house holding my Maths books.Thank God.I would have not been able to complete the project without my Maths book.
Shower,watch Silence,complete my project & now..online..
Starting to feel tired now..guess there's where the post bout today's gonna end..
Should i open up again?
Boy , I Love You .
9:22 PM
♥ Saturday, January 20, 2007
[Mood: [Listening to:I'm coming by Rain]
Don't know exactly where to start..
But just to make it short and simple,this week is by far one of the worst since i start schooling at sri sedaya.
Why u ask?
So many things happened.Among it is cause of my break up with my boyfriend,Caleb.
You guys must think.."Break up only ma..What's so big deal?"
Not a big deal to me but to me it is.
Cause my relationship with this guy is really special.Not just puppy dog love ok.
And the reason we broke up is cause of some blady fucking asshole which can't get a life of his/her own.
Going to school and seeing them is a pain in the ass.
Coming back home sucks as well.
Where can i go??
At one point i felt so lost.So afraid.So hurt.So scared.So insecure.
What am i gonna do if i lose yet again another important person to me?
Can i bear that pain again?
Even now no matter how deep i cut myself i dont' feel the pain.Not even till it bleed like shit.Now i understand why people cut themselves and at the same time not feeling any pain.
The emotional pain i'm feeling right now is nothing compared to the pain i get when i hurt myself.
Blah..
Sorry for boring you guys with this boring emo crap bout my life.But that's what's happening right now.
And i just wanna be honest and come clean.Telling the truth bout how i'm feeling and not just pretending to smile and seem all happy but in the inside i'm in pain.
Does anyone know?
Only my close frens know how i feel?
Does he know how i feel??
Can't you make the first move this time?
Is it to much to ask for?
Tell me..
What's left for me to look forward to anymore??
Boy , I Love You .
8:32 PM
♥ Friday, January 19, 2007
[Mood:EMO] [Listening to:I Still Believe by ViVi]
Today's yet another sad day for me.Finally my relationship with Caleb.
All happen because of a 3rd person involve again.But this time that person backstab me.What a great friend indeed.
I don't know what kind of feelings i'm feeling right now.
Sad?
Angry?
Or both?
I just know one thing..
Dieing felt like the best option right now..
Sabrina help me out will you?
Boy , I Love You .
10:23 PM
♥
[Mood:EMO] [Listening to:I Still Believe by ViVi]
Today's yet another sad day for me.Finally my relationship with Caleb.
All happen because of a 3rd person involve again.But this time that person backstab me.What a great friend indeed.
I don't know what kind of feelings i'm feeling right now.
Sad?
Angry?
Or both?
I just know one thing..
Dieing felt like the best option right now..
Sabrina help me out will you?
Boy , I Love You .
10:23 PM
♥ Thursday, January 18, 2007
[Mood:In pain] [Listening to:-]
Blogging using the school computer.
That's what i like about this school.There's a computer lesson once every week and we ususally get to do whatever we wanted.Sometimes teacher asks us to research some stuffs but basically no one does it.XD
Wonder what lays ahead today.Hopefully its another fun day at school.Apart from that i know one things that's gonna happen afterwards.Me and my friends are gonna get screwed by our BM teacher for not doing our research.
My excuse is gonna be "Sorry for not printing out my reseacrh although i did went and search for it but i was just too lazy to print it."
I know,i know..If i say that to a person like her i'm gonna get in more trouble only.And that's the last thing that i wanna do now which is by getting on her bad side.She can be really nasty you know.And its my PMR year.I don't want ANY trouble at all.
See how good i've been?Stop rolling your eyes~(i mean you aishah!)
How i wish i have enough time to go and visit my old friends.I do miss them.(You know who you are!!~)
Gosh..i feeling hungry now..need to go find something to munch on before my gastric gets me.
Nothing's gonna stop me anymore**
Boy , I Love You .
9:21 AM
♥ Wednesday, January 17, 2007
[Mood:Tired] [Listening to:Keep Holding On by Avril Lavigne]
PMS T.T
Had to focus on what teacher's teaching,complete my homework,rush from class to class getting there on time,meeting assholes on the way and also continue doing revision every night.
Life's so Not fun at this point.But i kept on making myself do all this things that i probably would not have done if i'm still in government school.
I made lots of changes in less than a month's time.Not just on my studies but i actually start to obey teachers intrustions.Cut my nail,take off my earrings etc.
I'm really being a good girl in front of the teachers. =)
But apart from that i did change in other ways as well.Now whenever anyone i know sees me they would just say one thing..
"Eh Joanne why you become more lala de?"
THAT is not a compliment at all ok.Why can't you guys say soemthing else instead on commentin on my appearance when you first lay eyes on me again??I'm talking bout you also Aishah.I regreted showing you my recent picture.You terus say i look/am a bitch.
-.-
School's like usual.Just that now things are getting more fun.Got so many people to disturb anywhere i go with my darlings **..(only some of you all will know who i get to disturb in the corridors all the time)
school's just hours away so i better stop now...
Don't worry i did not forget to post the pics..will do it later yea ^^
LovE~~
Boy , I Love You .
10:14 PM
♥ Sunday, January 07, 2007
[Mood:Cranky] [Listening to:Get Right by J.Lo]
Even finding a time to go online seems so difficult right now.
I'm beginning to feel that my life now is practically meaningless.
I'm repeating the same routine on weekdays.
School-home-bath-sleep-dinner-homework-revision-sleep..and the same thing goes on again the next day.
I also don't have weekend free to myself anymore.My parents just love to drag me wherever they went.
It'll all be alot more easier if i'm not having PMR this year.Less stress.I don't dare to let my mind just wonder off while the stupid teacher is babbling in front of the class cause i've already missed out on two years worth of studies.
Despite the fact that i would do anything at this point to be able to stay at home and not needing to return to school i can't do much at all.
Well i better off just stop complaining and start to deal with the fact that i'll be stuck in Sri Sedaya for this year and also the next two until i've completed my secondary school.
Sorry if i waste your time reading all this crap that i've posted but i'm really bored at the moment so just deal with it.
Afterall,this is MY blog.
Boy , I Love You .
2:19 PM
♥ Thursday, January 04, 2007
[Mood:Tired] [Listening to:-]
Alright already,i'm blogging!~
Well let me start by saying sorry for not blogging for a freaking long time.
School has already started and things just get more and mroe busy and packed for me.
Despite the fact that i hate my previous school so much but now a small part of me kinda wished that i was still back there with all my friends and everything.
Obviously i'm making new friends at my new school now,Sri Seadaya, but it still feels weird.
And i'm also not really close with anyone in my class.We talk and everything but that's just about it.It's like there's a gap between us or something.
The schooling hours are also much more longer than my previous school's.
I had to get up at 6 a.m and only come back around 5 p.m.
More than half a day gone like that.Not forgetting the endless piles of homework.And to add to it i'm WAY BEHIND on my form 1 and 2 work.Everytime i start to think about it i start to panic.
School now is such a bore i don't even look forward to it.Everyone is pretty friendly with one another including the seniors as well.
I feel so alone in school.Makes me wish i had my dear friends with me.What great difference that'll make.
Sigh.
Just letting you all know i'll be posting another post whenever i'm free about my trip to johor and i'll upload the pictures taken as well.
But that'll have to wait until i'm free.Hee..
Does everyone deserves another chance although they've lost their first few chances already?
