Counting Back On Time ♥

well..here's de list of 10 ppl dat i promised u to do..xD
dsi 10 ppl meant alot to me n did make lotsa changes in my life..
all dis ppl down here is juz all-strictly-frens oni..no wan special is listed down here...
cuz to me frens always cum first in my life..=D

o1. dear..thx fer all dat euu haf done fer me..always accompany me whenever i m bored..i dunno how to express my gratitude to ya..to bad now we can seldom c each other de..sob..miss u so much geh..one day wen we free we go yam cha kays..dun always bz gaming oni larhx..muz take care of ur helath oso marhx..dun sleep so late de larhx..after haf panda eyes den not cute de lorhx..meanwhile take care oww..i>3 u always dear..

o2. started to noe euu better in standard 6..n dats wer we oso started to bcum bffs..xD

well,lyk wat everyone else says..gurl u do haf a great fashion sense!~~ oso luv de fact dat ur cheeky..=.=" u haf oso gave me lotsa great advice n moral support wen i needed it..u were always der fer me wen i needed someone by my side supporting me..u were always der to gimme advise n making me feel better whenever i haf probs wif 'him'..again tQ fer everything dat u haf ddone fer me..wat can i say?~ >3 u 4ever dear..

o3. my dear..thx fer always beeing der fer me..u haf always been a great kor fer me..always accompany me wen i need u or juz cuz i m bored..newayz wateva dat u haf done fer me..4m all de great advises till de smallest things ever..i still appreciate it truly..realli miss euu oww..nvr c u fer so long tim..newayz..take care ya dear..

o4. i haf oso started to noe u at standard 6..n at der is oso de start of our great frenship..we did haf quite a bumpy frenship at first but as time flies past..things start to fall in place..ur a very nice n soft person in de inside so u muz learn to be stronger kasy?~oso thx fer always being a great fren..being der fer me all de tyme..giving me lotsa great advice n has oso gave me lotsa emotional support.i realli appreciate wat ever dat u haf done fer me all dis tyme..>3 u always..

o5. i'm very glad to noe u cuz u surely did make lots of changes in my life..u've always been a great fren n oso haf always been lyk a kor fer me..u may look strong on de outside but i noe dat inside ur a very soft n caring person hu believes strongly in god..dast wat makes a person equal newayz ryte?~chattin wif u is oso nvr bowink..xD u r oso de one dat influencve me de most by far..(u shud noe hu u r) newayz tQ fer everything all dis while..

o6. i oni got closer to euu dis year but in such a short tyme we clicked n instantly became bffs.ur a very great fren..had always spent so much of ur tyme listenin to wat i haf to say n giving me de best advice all de tyme..tQ again fer all dat u haf done fer me dear...

o7. i haf known u fer 1 year+ de lorhx..not very long geh..but i find dat i can click well wif u..xD

u r always cheerful no matter wat de situation is i can still c ur sweet smile..fell realli happie wen i m wif u..no matter how sad or down i m at dat moment seeing ur smile brightens up my day..dun always say me naughty de larhx!~even if i naughty oso kena influence by dis 'tai ko' here larhx~~wun be seeing u fer sometime so u muz take care oww..oso de best of luck in everything dat u pursue..

o8. dear..tQ so much fer always being fer me..dun say i always dun care bout u larhx..actually i do care..tQ fer always beign der fer me through thick n thin tymes..always giving me great advice n always making me feel better wen i'm sad..so glad 2 noe u..u did make a change in my lyfe..-XoXo-

o9. noe u fer 1 year+ de lorhx..4m de first day i noe u till now u still nvr change..still as playful as always..aikzZz...dun always bully me de larhx..i very cham geh always let u bully me..=D newayz..very happiie dat finally u can find someone dat can match ur pesonalities..very long nvr c u de hor..wen we free one day we go out yam cha wif de rest kays..again thx fer all dat u haf done 2 make my lyfe a better wan..

1o. dear..u haf always been der fer me all dis tyme..always cheering me up wen i m down..cant help but to smile everytime i'm wif u..who cares even if ur blur at tymes but i still luvvr u fer hu u r..newayz thx again fer all de tyme dat u haf spent giving me great advise wen i broke up wif dat loser..>3 u..

wish i cud haf wrote more den 10 though..

wif luv always..

-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
10:13 AM

aikz..2day damm sienz..nth much 2 do...mornin again start off wif maths tuition...
but 2day its a bit different..
i more semangat go tuition lerhx~
c wat i mean bout studying harder n concentrating more on my studies..xD
aikz..
amy ask me do de top-10 person thingy..lolz..
i will do it later amy...xD
after tuition went shopping..
oso went 2 de AND1 bsb thing fer awhile..
later on went fer lunch..
came back bout 2+
lepak at fren's hse..
at nyte went out fer dinner..
well..
realli tired..
need 2 get sum rest..
till den..

wit luv always..
-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
10:29 PM

yesterday damm tiu larhx..
me,mariah,huey min,liyana,steffi n melissa went out 2 de bakery fer lunch..
gud thing fer us de wheather is real cloudy n windy...xD
wen we settled down at de bakery it started 2 rain..
=.="
later huey min wanted 2 go 2 7-11 to buy maggi..so we teman her go..
den wen we came back de guy wun let huey min in cuz no outside food allowed~
stupid fella..
den we meet yashini at 7-11 n she wanted 2 join us so we went 2 de mamak stall in de same row
as i wuz bout 2 step in i saw de whole malay gang inside der..
tiu -.-
den maharaj all der oso..
so we went n sat at de last table inside..
every1 looked at us wen we entered..
yashini belanja us...xD
after awhile liyana n steffi left fer skol first..
we r ade late newayz..
suddenly another big group of malay gang came in..
dis time wif bob all der..
shit..
he looked at me as he entered..
eww..
he kept on smiling at me..
i wuz hoping dat he wun tease me der..
malu larhx..
after awhile we left..
on de way out yashini saw her bro,vinod der...
den we paid n left..
screw it had 2 walk in de rain..
arrived at skol late..
kena demerit again..
wtf?!~
my points damm less de..
need 2 get more merit urgently..
at skol skipped sum classes..
den last 2 periods skipped class again n went 2 tempat menunggu wif amy mariah..
kena halau by rohaya..went 2 foyer c after dat..
den angeline,melissa n rachel join us..
balik time de stufid prefect bday so all wet her..
i kena wet oso..=.="
dunno how dey pour wan..
stupid ppl..
at nyte sorta got into a small argument wif my mom...
went straight 2 my room after dat..
i mean wat else u expect 4m me..
slept bout 12+..
damm early ryte..
nth else 2 do de marhx..

den today very sienz..
my mom,dad n bro went out early in de mornin leaving me n my sis at home cuz i wanna sleep..
malas wake up early..
my sis dam smart wake up bout 8+ n wake me up as well...
told her 2 get lost cuz i wanna sleep n wake me up later..
but she damm smart..
go wake me up every 15 minutes..
=.="
so at 9 15 she woke me up again...
so i gave in 2 her n woke up..'
happy??~
den came down..breakfast..
watch tv de whole day..
nth else better 2 do newayz..
den at 12+ dey came back..
had pizza fer lunch..
fren came over...
lepak..
den 5+ go take a nap..
dats wat i do best..xD
woke up bout 7 lyk dat...
bath..
went out fer dinner..
saw a cute guy at de restaurant...xD
after dat went home..
on9..
chatted wif jx..
update blog..
well..
till den..

wif luv always..
-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
9:28 PM

dis few days damm sienz...problems keep on coming wen de other probs is not even settle yet..
den dis few days oso damm bz wif all de stupid folios..
had 2 interview bulu,rohaya...
i keep on tahan trying not 2 laugh wen i interview dem..
den took rohaya's ugly pic..wanted 2 take bulu's pic but she wun allow us..
guess she realise dat she's ugly...
fuck it..
dunno wats 'her' prob..
keep on cari pasal wif me...
i mix wif hu is my prob larhx..
since wen u haf de ryte 2 judge me..
plz stop beeing a bitch larhx..
summore dare ugut me tim..
tiu -.-
aikz..
amy still abit emo..
at least gettin better mar..
yesterday sorta got into an argument wif her...
i understand ur going through a hard time..
but plz dun take it out on me larhx..
aikz..
damm sienz geh..
argue wif my dad again yesterday..
it seems dat all dis arguments nvr end at all..
screw it...
=.="
in skol i had skipped less classes ade..
i wan 2 concentrate more on my studies de..
n my merit oso left damm less liao..
scared de gua..
last nyte chatted wif jx on de fon..
did my stupid sej folio..
den at nyte went out yam cha wif jason kor..
came back bout 12+
dun dare cum back 2 late liao..
after kena screw again 4m my dad..
well...
till den..

wif luv always..
-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
10:49 AM

yesterday damm tiu..
suddenly dey ask all de form 2 go foyer c..
den suddenly dat stupid fucker khalid guy go shout n scold us..not 4getting insulting us as well..
=.="
den dey all do sportcheck...
lucky i manage 2 slip de fon 2 my kor in time..xD
i kena sportcheck by marissa...
den wen she cannot find anything she damm tak puas..she lyk wan tear my bag apart ade..
den she cal dat black michelle over..
den her turn pulak 2 go sportcheck my bag..
n her turn as well trying 2 attempt 2 tear my bag apart...
tiu -.-"
den after dat dey body check me...
dat darn michelle(black wan) keep on graping me..if she realli my fren she wun do all di sshit..
she even make me take out my shoes...
den pulak she o grap my legs...wtf??!!~~
later on she still cant find anything..
den after dis my whole class had 2 go 2 foyer a der fer another round of sportcheck...
my class damm special..
now dey say wat having sportcheck everyday..
tiu...
die larhx me...
so boring larhx..
cant ponteng all cant..
fuck de stupid science teacher..
go report 2 rajinder
tiu..
damm fucking pissed off...
den had 2 take off my earrings..
at nyte went n collect my new specs...
xD
den did my kh folio...
sms wif jx den later chatted wif him on de fon...
so sienz..
well....
till den..
keep u updated..

wif luv always...
-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
11:00 AM

damm sienz..
yesterday damm tiring..
summore wen ponteng dat time kena caught by bulu...
tiu le la..
simply catch us..
dne i sound her...
keep on scolding her..
until she cannot tahan de den she oni scold me back..
=.="
den she wrote our names down..
she say if she catch us again..
straight 2 MD..
wateva larhx..
u stupid rajinder u wait larhx..
i tehgah pms-ing u make me walk around pick up rubbish..
u go die better larhx..
ma hai..
den at nyte pulak got tuition..
middle of tuition jx call me..
he said he call me back later..
at 11+ he called me again...
chatted fer damm long..xD
till den..

wif luv always..
-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
11:15 AM

sowie fer not blogging fer de last 2 days..guess i wuz juz 2 bz or i juz basically din haf de mood 2 blog at all...
last 2 days i wasnt feeling so well..physically n emotionally..
i almost fell sick again..aikz..
wen i hang out wif my kors at nyte dey all noticed it..=(
dey did spend sum time 2 advice me on my current condition ryte now..thx jason,adam,ben,aaron,ck n ming kor n oso jass jie..appreciate it lots..
meanwhile i wuz oso very bz plannin fer lots of upcoming events..
1 of de bad part is dat i had an argument wif my parents..again..
seriously i m getting sick of dis shit ade..y cant dey gimme a break...aikzZz...
as if dats not enuff i been having prob wif my dear as well..
again thx fer all my pet bros,sis n my dear frens hu haf been der fer me wen i m in an emotional status..luv u guys 4eva..
i oso realise dat dis time i really do luv dis guy..
n dis is not lyk my other relationships dat i wud juz screw it wen things go wrong...cuz i realli luv dis guy...
i realli luv u ke ming...>33
my frens r all ryte..he really does cares fer me..
dis few months everything haf been a total down crash fer me..
basically not everythin is goin ryte or may i say..my way...
but dis few days i haf been doin lots of thinkin..
wat m i gonna do without my frens,pet bros n sis by my side wen i m down??~
hu will be by my side n cheer me up wen i m down?~
dats y i realise dat i muz realli appreciate those hu has stick by my side all dis time..through gud n bad times...
dats y i wud lyk 2 express my appreciation fer u guys...
n i wan 2 let u guys noe dat i >3 u guys 4eva...xD

below r a list of ppl dat has been by my side all dis times wen i needed dem..has made me smile wen i m down..has tot me de joy of laughter..n most important of all has been der fer me wen i m down n needed sum1 by my side...

~Mariah~
gurl...thx fer always being der fer me wen i wuz down n giving me lots of gud advice..i >3 u always..n oso thx fer being a great fren n muMmiEe fer me..i oso noe dat u r a very nice n soft person inside so u muz certainly be tougher kays?~i'm sure u'll fin da ryte guy fer urself 1 day..realli glad 2 haf such a cheeky fren lyk u..whoever dat dun den its ur lost..xD..n 2 let u noe dat u will always haf me n de rest by ur side now n always..

~Sheila~
darling..thx fer all de time wer u haf spent listening 2 all my probs n giving me great advice..u made me feel so much better..although we haf oni started 2 bcum close frens dis year but i cna c a great frenship ahead of us.. i hope dat our frenship can last 4eva dear..u haf been a really great 'anak' fer me..although ur kinda loud at times..but i still luv u fer hu u r..

~Amelia~
my dear mui..thx fer being a great fren all de time..always der fer me wen i needed u...i noe dat ur a very soft n easily get hurt type of person so u muz be stronger okies..=p wats happen in de past juz let it stay der n remain as memories kays..u gotta move on in life ryte..newayz ur so cute i m sure 1 dya u will find a guy dat is suitable fer u..luv ya...

~Huey Min~
mui mui..tq so much fer all dat u haf done fer me..spending all ur time listenin my probs n giving me great advice..being wif u is juz awesome..u can always make me laugh n smile even wen i m down..i dunno how 2 express my gratitude 2 u..although ur so blur but i still luv u fer hu u r..muakxXx..

~Vivien~
dear jie..thx fer being der fer me all dis time..through gud n bad times..we r always der fer each other..luv u always..jie..its time fer u 2 get over dat jerk ade..he's not wroth it..n btw u ade haf other guys dat luv u fer hu u r..so dun waste ur time fer dat jerk ade kays..xD

~Aishah~
darling grandma..tq fer being a great fren n always der fer me..giving me lotsa advice dat really works..being wif u can nvr be boring at all...so glad 2 noe such a great fren lyk u..n wen i m having prob wif him u r always der fer me..showering me wif warmth n guide lines..>33 u always..

~Ai Ping~
u've always been a great fren..indeed a very sweet wan..oni start 2 get closer wif u dis year..cant help but 2 smile everytime wen i m wif u..take care ya..

~Liyana~
thx always fer giving me great advices n being a super great fren..though ur blur but u nvr fail in being a great fren fer me...

~Angeline~
thx so much fer always being a great fren..listening 2 my probs n giving me great advice all de time..n oso always being so understanding all de time..thx fer everything..

~Ke Ming~

dear thx fer always being der fer me wen i m down n needed sum1..i totally appreciate wateva dat u haf done fer me..i oso finally realise dat u really do care fer me n how i felt..i m so sowie fer hurting u dat time..i din mean 2 do it..i wuz juz afraid dat i wuz making another mistake in another relationship..i tot i will haf 2 screw dis relationship lyk my others..but ryte now i haf realise dat i really luv u..n i always will...>33 u 4eva dear..muakxXx...

~Song Ian~
dd..so glad 2 haf a great n cute dd lyk u..thx oso fer always accompanying me wen i wuz bored or alone..tq fer all dat u haf done fer me..

~Jin Xiang~
everytime wen i talk 2 u i wun feel bored or lonely at all..at times wen i m down u really can make me laugh n smile again wif ur humors..thx fer always being lyk a 'big bro' fer me..newayz i juz wan 2 let u noe dat i forgive wateva dat u did last time..n every1 makes mistakes ryte?~n oso gud luck in everything...xD

~Cheong Tat~
thx fer being a great fren n oso a kor fer me..everytime wen i talk 2 u surely i wun feel bored at all..newayz dun always fool around de kays..concentrate more on ur studies larhx..dun always say me malas oni..u muz work harder lerhx!~ 15 months is not long larhx..soon ma can cum back de lorhx..study hard ya!!~

~Shen Fung~
tq fer being a great fren haf always been lyk an elder bro fer me..ur gonna be 18 dis year hor..big de geh..den dun act lyk small kid de larhx..always bully me summore..newayz so long nvr c u de hor..so muz take care ya..

~Yue Tim~
thx fer being a great kor fer me..always accompany me chat wen i wuz bored..gave me great advice..n remeber 1 time wen i could not sleep u accompany chat till 4+ in de mornin till i fall asleep..ur gonna be 18 dis year oso hor..big de lerhx...den dun always act lyk small kid de larhx..hao ma?~so long nvr c u de hor..wan day free we all go yam cha 2gtr kays...meanwhile..take care ya..>>3 u 4eva...

~Jia Liang~
thx fer being a great kor fer me..always accompany me wen i wuz bored..everytime wen i talk 2 u surely i will feel happy wan..>3 u always..

~Carmen~
thx fer always being a great fren n jie fer me..study hard owww...take care ya..>3 ya...

~Jolene~
thx fer always being der fer me..as my jie..giving me advice wen i broke up wif dat loser..tq so much...luv ya..

~Phoebe~
thx fer being a super great fren fer me..always can make me smile..dun always so emo larhx...gotta move on in life ryte..so take care okies..muaxXx...

Boy , I Love You .
10:31 AM

yesterday wuz supposed 2 be a completly fun day fer me..at least i tot it wud be..de first half of it wuz awesome!~but not fer de second half...newayz let me start wif de first half first..

mornin went on9 den sms my dear..
later on went on9 n at de same time had 2 do my stupid project..=.=
den gotten ready fer skol..
2day plannin 2 skip skol..
reached skol n meet up wif huey min...
den later mariah n liyana came..waitin fer sheila 2 cum..
thank god she came down earlier...~phew~
den me, mariah, huey min,sheila,steffi n liyana went out..
first we went 2 de bookshop..spent alot of time der while huey min went 2 de bakery first..
de rest of us spent lotsa time der..
at de same time me n mariah is sporting de cute guy at de back of de shop..xD
den finally wen we r all done we went 2 de bakery while liyana n steffi head back 2 skol..
huey min is so pissed off wit us..
i guess its cuz we came back real late..
sowie ya huey min...><
den we ordered food n went 2 7-11 2 buy maggi fer huey min..
saw so many ppl der..
michelle thx fer ur money..
>3 u always..
den went back 2 bakery ate de food n after buyinb magazine went 2 mariah's hse n lepak der..
we went 2 mariah's room n sheila n mariah tried out mariah's new guitar..
huey min is into her own world of comic..
while i sit der n read mag + listen 2 dem play guitar..
den later went downstairs cuz sheila n huey min wants 2 play wif mariah's cat Mischief..
mariah cant stop reading my msg n sheila n huey min is on her side..boohoo~
den suddenly sheila n huey min got 2 de floor n started doin sumthin..no idea wat at first..
den we realise der r playing twister " sheila's stlye"
it wuz really fun...den me n mariah played it..while we played we took lotsa funny pics..later i will upload it n put it der fer u guys 2 c..xD
here is de score 4m de game dat we palyed..

-sheila vs. huey min : draw
-me vs. mariah : i won...yay!!~
-me vs. mariah (round 2) : i won again!!~
-me vs. sheila : sheila won....><
-mariah vs. huey min: draw..

overall i won de most..yay me!!~
den we were so tired we juz hang around der..
later on me n huey min walk back 2 skol..
vivien juz went back oni..=.="
den chatted wif frens..
on de way back saw ct cy ch all..
ch pointed at me n all look..
shit~
zha lan dou..
i told dem i not goin out 2day..
=.="
sure kena zha wan 2nyte wen i go out wit dem...
den went back home n went out fer dinner..
so tired de..
den went n make new specs..
dis time i making frameless wan..
hahaz..
xD
den came home on9..
den amy called me..

okay now fer de other half dats not so gud..
aikz....
later on i sms wif my dear..
i suddenly felt dat i cant take dis anymore n i talked 2 him bout our relationship..
but it seems dat he doesnt really care at all...
i wuz so fed up dat in de end i ask him fer break..
but he nvr ans dat question of mine although we r still chattin..
den i brought it up again...
he said he dun wan 2 break wif me..
den i sms wif aishah..
later on i went out at nyte n meet wif my korz..
i left my fon at home so i din reply his msg..
i look real emo so my kor realised dat sumthing is wrong..
but sumhow i nvr told dem wat happen...
feel lyk keeping it 2 myself...
den went home bout 6+ in de mornin..
every1 is ade sleeping..
went 2 my room n i cried fer while oni..
i dunno but i dun really feel sad..
juz real emo oni..
=.="
its lyk i biasa wif dis couple n break up thing ade..
its lyk a daily routine or sumthin fer me ade..
suddenly fer de first time i had de feeling of giving up on luv all on ade..
now i understand wen ppl say dey wan 2 give up on luv..
cuz i m feeling it ryte now..
den de next day i checked my msg..
he msg me a few times..
he said dat he feel very said i nvre bother 2 reply him ..
n dat he feel even more sad dat i dun love him anymore..
i cant reply him cuz fon outta credit..
surely he thinks dat i dun wan 2 talk 2 him anymore..
i m really lost n confused ryte now..
i felt so lost ade...
i dunno wats my next move..
oni time will tell..

till den..

wif luv always...
-joanne-

Boy , I Love You .
12:21 PM

yesterday wasnt dat boring as i tot it wud be..

went 2 skol den chatted wif caroline n sheila..den later amy came...skipped sivik..hate de blady teacher..suxx..den went 2 de stairs wif sheila...we chatted fer so long..den later on huey min came n join us..den later on i went back 2 my class..de whole class is empty!~den azwan told me dey all went 2 computer lab.so sheila n huey min forced me 2 go.so i toke my books n all.but wen i went in..no one wuz studying at all..every1 is playing com game.so i went n sat wif aishah,fadzween n caroline i join dem playing de game as well..not bad la de game...den after dat..went n find sheila n huey min n went 2 de library..played some games..sheila won...^^ den went recess..every1 feeling so hungry suddenly..swt// den after recess went 2 mariah's class...lepak der..den mariah brought sum cake..we ate it..mariah n sheila wuz fooling around wif de cake n de way dey act is lyk almost kissing each other..den mariah's bm teacher came in n called dem lesbians...hahaz...=.= so funny..mariah n sheila damm malu ade..den amy attempt 2 kiss sheila 4m de back..n juz in time sheila moved away..sheila is lyk almost freaking out ade...><>

till den..

luv always...
~joanne~

Boy , I Love You .
11:21 AM

my current mood:slepy+emo

very tired la dis few days...i oso dunno y geh..i din reply my dear's msg dis few days..dunno y oso larhx..no mood fer anyhtin at all larhx..ysterday at skol i din skip any classes at all!!~;Dso many folio 2 do recently..aikz..damm teachers..stupid shaun go ask his frens put my name at their pm saying i luv......really nth better 2 do la dat guy..den last nyte chatted wif my kor n jx...

till den..
joanne

Boy , I Love You .
11:26 AM

yesterday wuz a real tiring day fer me...

as usual woke up den went on9..at de same time i did my project..stupid teachers gave me so many projects 2 do at 1 time...wtf...den went 2 skol early 2 day..chatted wif amelia..she told me bout wat happened at kp's bday party...swt// suprisingly yesterday i din skip classes dat much lyk i usually do..=.= den b4 perhimpunan all of us lepak outside my classroom.juju n sheila seems 2 be having lotsa fun den any1 else...xD..in short i finally manage 2 pinch sheila cheeck back thx 2 juju..but i cant write it in full detail after she will kill me..den later at perhimpunan annoyed d eprefects lyk shit oni..hahaz..cnat believe dat shit keenan became a prefect!!~~ wat de fuck?!~newayz..gtg ryte now..
till den...

wit lots of love always...
~liL.dReAmeR~

Boy , I Love You .
11:41 AM

here i am again..blogging away..finally had de chance 2 on9 after a very long n tiring day..

yesterday woke up late cuz over slept de..den later on went on9..chatted wif angeline n my dear kor..later on tried 2 cal aishah but she's not home..msg her hp but no reply gain..den sms wif song ian n dear..den had 2 go get ready fer skol..wen i nicely eating my lunch over der suddenly de blady fucking transport came!~2day my transport came super early..wat de fuck?!~wen i wan de transport 2 cum early..go cum late..den wen i tot coming late..go cum early pulak..damm tiu de..wanted 2 bring my fon along so can msg wif dear..but i tertinggal it at home cuz in a hurry stuffing everything into my bag thx 2 once again my transport fer coming super early..
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den went 2 skol..me,huey min n steffi went over 2 amy's hse...gowri wuz der as well..den lepak der fer awhile..=.= den wen we were all wearing our shoes goin back 2 skol..gowri went n sat on top of de pillar at amy's hse..she almost fell over but thank god i manage 2 catch her in time..(heard dat gowri...)den wen we reach skol meet wif sheila n de rest...things were kinda stiffed at first cuz sheila n amy juz had a fight yesterday..aikz...den mariah came wif liyana..later on skipped most of de classes...fucking science teacher go ryte my name down...screw her la..no moood de dat time...juz kept on thinkin n missin my dear oni..den later on lepak wif cass,angeline,yan yee,melissa,rachel..stupid prefect cum kacau us...fuck...den lepak again at empty class wif mariah,amy,ai ping,huey min,juju n shaun...shaun kept on disturbing me..den juju said sumthin on my behalf..thx juju..den suddenly juju went n say dun u realise dat he(shaun) wants/trying 2 pikat u?!~i'm lyk...speechless..damm malu..den thank god shaun finally stop disturbing me ade..den went home earlier...my dad came n pick me up cuz me n my family haf 2 go fer de dinner at sek.sri sedaya...i tot it wuz gonna be really boring n lame at first but den later on i change my mind..its kinda interesting actually..de table dat i wuz sittin wif my mom n dad wuz supposed 2 be shared wif my bro's frens parents..i nvr expected fer a family wif a totally cute guy as their son sat wif us!!~~he's so cute..we exchanged no.hee~den watch de performance installed fer us.de food suxx la..mth special at all..newayz i m not interested in de food at all...more lyk in de guys der...hehe..der is juz so many cute guys der...=.= my bro n sis performance wuz interesting...xD den my song ian n my dear msg me..chatted wif dem both..den after de event went 2 de mamak stall fer supper...at least de food der is better den de food dat is served at de dinner..slept really late...kept on fillin up my time by missing my dear n listening 2 JJ's songs..kinda addicted 2 it ade..

yawnz~~2day woke up bout 10+..den got dressed n went put fer breakfast.saw victoria der..i wuz so blur i din notice her till she say hi 2 me although our table is juz next 2 each other!!~~den went 2 mid valley n did lots of shopping..my leg hurt so much..so not wearing dat shoe fer shopping again..den wanteed 2 go fer kin gary fer lunch..sadly its packed full...den went 2 de restaurant beside it.."the chopsticks noodles hse"..tried de pan mee...not bad..kinda nice...den i saw de guy i meet at sri sedaya dinner last nyte...dis time i got another no again 4m another leng cai!!~feel so happy...swt//...newayz later got back bout 4+..went on9 n doin dis blog now..later goin out fer dinner..n oso goin 2 make new specs..hahaz...aikz..till her den..

wif luv,
~liL.dReAmeR~

Boy , I Love You .
5:30 PM

yesterday was so tiring...dunno if its juz me or wat..n de wheather was so damm hot!~as usual haf 2 go 2 de freakingly boring skol..not really in a mood ade yesterday...i think its cuz i was beinmg 2 paranoid over wat has been happening...i almost fall sick again..aikz..cham la me..after recess is wen i really tripped..cuz huey min,sheila,mariah all cant stop poking me..i got really annoyed...summore i not in a gud mood dat time..feel lyk breaking down real badly...i kept telling myself 2 calm down n let things patch up by itself.but its not as easy as u think it is.den at de last 2 period der is dis form 1 bitch dat kurang ajar wif me.really wan slap kau her face ade dat time.but amelai,aishah all ask me calm down n ignore dat form 1 bitch.she better becareful dun let me c her again or else~~ish!~well den went home later on..sms wif song ian 4 while..credit running low...so sad...stupid fucking digi simply charge ppl!!~den at nyte waitin fer keming 2 msg me..den went on9..at de same time did my science folio..stupid teachers..gave me 5 folios 2 do..screw it..den finally keming msg me =.= after chattin awhile wif him..he asked me fer cp!~i tot he wuz joking at first den he told me dat he wuz serious.since we really do luv each other..den y dun trying it out..newayz my other realtionship is ade so fucking screw up...wats de point of hanging on 2 it any longer wen u noe der wun be any new hopes n all u get is being hurt more n more oni??i decided at last 2 break free 4m de last relationship ade.cuz i really had enuff of it ade..its time 4 dat 2 happen newayz..dear..i miss u so much..dunno wen oni can c u oh..cant stop thinking bout u...juz hoping dat i can c u as soon as possible dear...luv u always...

wif luv always...
~liL.dReAmeR~

Boy , I Love You .
10:35 AM

~yawnz~dis few days feel so slepy oni wan..aikz...din get much sleep gua..i think i maybe getting sick gua..i think its maybe cuz i think bout de prob 2 much till lyk dis gua..well dats wat most of my kor say at least..yesterday went 2 skol den lepak wif frens at de stairs..later on me,sheila n huey min skip de firedrill thingy..den kena caught by hazmi~den i ask him 2 do us a favour n let us go n next time we will do him a favour oso.n suprisingly he said yes!~he's an idiot.so easy kena rasuah by us...loser...den goin back time..der is dis guy dat pass out flyers bout music classes.den he gave us all a flyer.i teased ai ping n told de guy dat ai ping is interested.den he ask wat is she interested bout.i said drums.dne we r laughing over der.ai ping damm malu ade.sum how de guy realise dat we care bout de teacher dats gonna teach us more den wat we r gonna learn.so de guy said btw de teacher is ade 40+.we laugh even harder.swt!~ai ping blush lyk shit oni.den went home..sms wif song ian..den later i sms keming cuz he ask me 2 remember 2 sms him..he is such a sweetheart..feel lyk maybe i start 2 fall fer him de..but den wat m i gonna do wif de person i m wif now?i cant juz dump him lyk dat..seriously i m damm confused ade...think so much till i think i really gonna break down soon enuff..i cant take it anymore..but i noe sumhow i need 2 make a decision soon...
till den~

wif luv...
~liL.dReAmeR~

Boy , I Love You .
11:50 AM

yesterday as usual woke up in de mornin den had another argument wif my mom.later on went 2 skol.lepak at de stairs der.told my frens bout wat happened yesterday.den we decide on wwat 2 do next weather we shud help or not.den later on mariah called her mom cuz she wanted 2 go back of stomach ache.den later on me,aishah,caroline n eunice skip sejarah n stayed at de stairs.later on de malay bithches came n cal us 2 go n c yogi bear..aikz..busted again thx 2 those bitches.dunno wat dey wan la..i oso nvr do anythin wrong 2 dem..y dey wan 2 bust me n my frens?!~dunno la dey all...den later on c yogi bear n dat fucking rohaya.kena screw nicely 4m her.i kena de most cuz i spoke 4 all of us..screw her la..kena insult 4m her 1st b4 finally letting us go..need 2 beg her summore...shit...but i had no choice...u blady bitch u better watch out...i wun 4get wat u did..its juz a matter of tyme b4 u get ur pay back.den later had a fake'firedrill'...screw dem..make us line up at de padang.but at least its better dne being stuck in geography.dat parames is bout 2 give us our geo folio work wen de emergency bell rang.lyk wat dey say saved by de bell..phew"..xDwent home sms-ed wif mariah aishah n song ian...

Boy , I Love You .
11:37 AM

aikz..dis few days damm sienz lerhx!~summmore 4 a few days in a row haven't gotten much sleep at all..so fucking screwed up!!everything's outta place ade.everyhting is falling apart 4 me..mth seems 2 be ryte at all..been having arguments wit my mom 4 a few days in a row.dat really suxx..i dunno wat she wants 4m me at all.everythin i do is so wrong.nth i do seems 2 be ryte..damm it!~everytime der is an argument y m i de 1 which is always wrong?!i nvr did a fucking wrong thing at all!!i m juz so fed up wif dis stupid family ade.juz trying 2 make my life more difficult n miserable oni.i dunno how long more can i stand dis stupid shit ade.i really had enuff ade.so now basically here's my new daily routine.wake up,breakfast,had an argument wif my mom,den let her continue scolding me till i go 2 skol..dats my daily routine in de mornin b4 goin 2 skol.now i juz feels dat goin 2 skol is so much better den staying at home.cuz at home all i get is more n more stress.but at skol(although i hate dat fucking skol) i haf more freedom 2 do wateva i wan 2 cuz der's no wan der 2 stop me n hold me back 4m being myself...de real me..i wish 2 juz fuckingly move outta dis hse n stay wif my kor or sumthin.izzit 2 much 2 ask fer a peaceful n simple life??my grades r not really improving but its been dropping instead.its still a miracle dat i can manage 2 get no.9 in class fer de mid year examination.cant blame my frens fer being suprised wen dey found outta dat i got no.9.really suprising actually...=p as if all dat happen isnt enuff fer me 2 handle...den der is another thing dat happen..actually dis prob has been around 4 a long tyme..but all dis tyme i can manage 2 handle it pretty well..but recently after all dis things dat happened all 2gtr at once..i juz dun seem 2 be able 2 handle it anymore.i told myself 2 give up hope on dis guy cuz waitin 4 him is lyk waitin fer rain in de dessert.so totally hopeless.basically ryte now i seem 2 haf given up hope on love..cuz wen u get involve in love get ready 2 get hurt..

Boy , I Love You .
10:45 AM

last nyte slept very late cuz i juz cant wait 2 finish readin dat novel...aikz..den woke up bout 6+ in de mornin..so cham..not enuff sleep.den later teman my kor go shopping.ate japanese food fer lunch..my dear kor belanja..^^later on he sent me home..read mag den go ZzZ...woke up bout 6+..bath...went outta fer dinner..saw de stupid fella..ish!~went home..on9..den went 2 my kor hse...xD

Boy , I Love You .
9:41 PM

4 dis past few days haf been very stressful...mostly spent time hanging out wif frens...n oso tried 2 get de bitter memory outta my head...though it seems lyk it will take 4ever 2 happen...aikz...den on 2day(friday) skol had an open day.askes my jie help me take report card...den hang outta wif vivien n elan..went home...on9...de bad part iz dat i had an argument wif my mom...so not gud at all...

Boy , I Love You .
2:10 PM

i dunno wat de fcuk has been happening dis few days...i expect things 2 get better as each day passes by...but instead things turn 4m bad 2 worse...cant u ever understand all de damages dat u haf done?saying sry wont mend anythin ade cuz dun u think ryte now is ade 2 late 4 all dis 2 turn back?i still cant believe dis is all actuallly happening.i m trying 2 accept de fact dat all dat is happening ryte now is a fact dat cant be changed anymore...i haf 2 apologise 2 a few ppl 4 blaming dem wihout finding out wats happening first.i oso damm malu ade la..dunno how 2 face ppl in skol anymore ade...all thx 2 his fault..i m sure he wun feel a thing cuz he's not de 1 dats suffering 4m all dat he has cuz...he juz cuz de prob n get away wif it...how easy it is 4 him...aikz...but de one's hu suffering 4m de mess he has cuz is de ppl around him...

Boy , I Love You .
11:04 AM

yesterday was a really hurtful n heartbreaking day...

i cried 4 a few hours...i oni manage 2 sleep at 4am+ later on..dats de longest time i haf ever cried 4 sum1 dat i really cared 4...who had juz dissapointed n hurt me...as soon as i found out dat u really did it...i juz cant control my tears anymore as it juz tool over n started 2 flow down my checks...i cant control my emotions anymore.i've been hurt,dissapointed,betrayed n embarresed.all in a day.tq so much 4 dat.but u tot me an important lesson.sumtimes de person dat u really haf faith in trust dem wif all ur heart might juz be de 1 dat hurt u n betray u in de end wen it all falls into place.i wan 2 let u noe dat i m not mad or pissed of at u 4 all dat u've done...but i m juz real hurt n dissapointed oni.how i wish dis is juz a nightmare dat i m about 2 wake up 4m soon...but wen de reality sinks in...i noe dat it wun happen n its all 2 late 2 turn back again...things will oso not be de same again...i juz haf 2 wait 4 time 2 pass..n may things heal as de time pass...though slowly...but at least ders changes...n oso 4 those ppl dat i hurt n said mean things 2 dem juz 4 defendind him oni...i m really n trully sry 4 all dat haf happen...hope i may gain ur forgiveness 4 it all...~~

Boy , I Love You .
3:54 PM

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