Counting Back On Time ♥

When You Walk Away,I Count Your Footsteps.

I dunno how to describe it anymore.

But long things short,my holidays sucks la wei.

Firstly cause my lovelies are not here with me right now.

I freaking miss you guys so much!

Aikz.

Only Jason L and the gang are here.

Hurry and get your ass back here before the summer splash party at Jude's place like promised ok?

><

Last night and also this morning representatives from the hotels that i'd made booking in Lumut kept calling me.

But i was too lazy to answer it.So my phone was practically ringing the whole day long.

Until just now they gave up and decided to sms me instead telling me that they had to cancel my booking.

=.=

I wonder will there save my no under some list so that the next time i call they'll be extra careful not to get themselves into this sorta mess for themselves again.

Haha.

About my day,nothing special.Just hanging out with friends and rotting around.

So i head over to Jason L's place and the whole gang was there.

I was told that Da Da was gonna be there so obviously i was very eager to meet her after all these while.

And Kenneth is coming too.

But when i got there they told me that they couldn't make it and of course i was super dissapointed.I was on the verge of tears.

When suddenly they pop outta no where and gave me a big bear hug!

Omg.Omg.

I was stunned to the spot man.

All i kept saying was "omgomg.you guys!"

Hahas.

Everyone was laughing and later they told me that they had planned it earlier on to suprise me.

-.-

I dunno what to say and Edmund kept laughing his ass off.

Gosh.I really wanna smack his head at that moment but i gave face to him.

Had Canadian pizza and bbq for dinner.Yummehh~!

@_@

But the most important thing is that i finally get to meet Da Da and Kenneth at last.

They bought me some souvenirs from Korea.

^^

Btw,i love bear hugs,so gimme one today!

Hahas.

I taught of signing up myself for camp or getting a part time job to kill off the time.

I just can't stand rotting at home doing nothing.

Argh.

This post is plain crap.

Gonna get outta here now.

Boy , I Love You .
2:05 PM

Memories Never Fade Away

Boo~!

Yesterday was so fucking emo that i don't wanna get out and socialise with anyone at all inculding my dears until they came to my house and drag my butt outta it.

><

Sorry la.People tgh emo ma.

NgekNgek.

LOL.

One thing here yeah.I HATE people that take out their anger on me when i have nothing to do with their problems.And worse if i don't really care that much about that person's problem.

If you're someone specially close to me and you get emotional at times,fine.I understand.

But if you just come and release your anger on me and expect me to accept your fucking attitude,then you might as well fuck off.

Phew.

I was sooo addicted to Princess Hours lately for a special reason.Cause my special someone is in the show playing one of the lead characters.

*ahem*

FYI,don't ask me who it is.You should read it carefully and try and guess.It's not that hard.

So go figure.

I can't help thinking about all the sweet things that had happened all the times when i've got to know you.

You're like every girls dream prince.

You make it sound as if fairy tale do have happy endings at times.

:)

I wish i could fly half across the country and meet you.

I think if i would have to make a long list of people that means the world to me and people that i wanna meet right away,the list will be so freaking long.

:(

Bah.

I'm stucked home today again cause of my sucky mood and pms.

But Jason L came to my rescue and brought me some goodies~~

Which girl doesn't love goodies?

He came with a handful of chocolates and sweets that would make any girl go crazy and also...ice -cream from Baskin Robbins!

Jason L i freaking LOVE you to bits.Mwax!!~

So,later we got hungry and he suggested that instead of eating out,why not we prepare lunch ourselves?

I agreed cause it might be fun.

And we both dig whatever that's left in the fridge and made a simple dish of fried rice and salad.

Simple and yummehh~~

:DD

Sorry for the lack of photos.

Was really lazy to upload it.

I wanna go sit my butt off and watch my "real life prince" in action.

Ciao~!!

Boy , I Love You .
2:08 PM

I was woken up super early today at 7 sharp by my oh so faithful friend.

I was pms-ing and it hurt so bad that i couldn't go back to sleep.

So i bathed and came down to continue watching Princess Hours.

For some reason i liked the show although there are certain boring parts.

---

Last night i was drawn to listen to Fahrenhiet's songs after some time.

For me i would usually avoid listening to their songs cause it brings me back memories of us.

Memories that i miss so much.

And last night after listening to them,i couldn't sleep and end up staying up all night thinking about all that had happened last year.

And i realised that i still missed you after all this time.

Boy , I Love You .
12:43 PM

I Miss Us

Today has been rather simple?

><

Woke up at 11+ i suppose.Then decided to start watching Princess Hours.I wanted to watch finish all the movies i ahd before the holiday is over.

Great resolution right?

Hahas.

Daddy came home in the afternoon and we went out all the way to deep KL to get our hair cut.

I only went and trim my frindge and the ends of my hair.

This few days i saw cars with funny stickers on it.A car with a sticker labelling there BITCH and another saying "Mafia's Official Car".

Well,i was PMS-ing so i'm too lazy to snap photos.

Forgive me for that yeah.

XD.

Saw someone at the salon just now.

o.O

This few days has been a rather gloomy one for me.

Watching someone that i care alot but hurt often lying there in the hospital looking awfully weak makes me wanna tear up everything i think about it.

Argh.

---

When are you coming back to KL?

I miss you so much Desmond!

-PMS bites back

Boy , I Love You .
3:44 PM

[Mood:On the verge of tears]

So the holidays have officially started.

Yay..?

I dunno but i'm not really in the mood to study or go on holiday.

I' ve not even bothered to make any plans with my friends yet.

And last night everything is ruined because of one damm person.

Fuck it.

So i'm not going to expect to have a great holiday this term.I think most of my days will just be spent at home,rotting,doing nothing.Like right now.

Oh well.Just my luck i guess.

Friends are texting and calling me to go out next week,but i haven't confirm yet.

Maybe its cause i was just waiting for that very special someone to ask em out during this holiday?

Even i myself dunno what am i waiting for.

:(

I felt like crying a billion times yesterday whenvever the taught of certain people cross my mind.

And its hard to control your emotions when the people around you are not helping but maing it worse.

It really isn't.

To all my friends who's been asking em out,i'm really sorry.Please give me a little time to settle everything first.

tuning in- lian ai de ren by luo zhi xiang

Boy , I Love You .
1:27 PM

[Mood:Annoyed]

Sorry for the lack of updates.

Was really busy lately.This will be a short post for now as i'm rushing and my eyes hurt.

><

Anyway,as usual many things happened lately.

My school principal,Mrs. Lee retired today.

In conjunction with that we celebrated Teachers Day and also her retirement at the same time.

This time the event was just moderate.Not very exciting and all.Add the fact that some sucky performance,it just made it all worse.

Then the teachers made us line up all the way to the school gate to bid farewell to Mrs. Lee.

We waited under the hot afternoon sun thats burning us for what seems like forever till Mrs.Lee emerged out driving her car and honking along the way.

We were treated to lucnh after that and the food weren't all that great i have to admit.Wasn't worth our $60 bucks class fund at all.

Today was the last day to hand in our Geo project and i did not manage to finish it on time.

Thank God Mr.Pau was kin and understanding.

:D

Later n head back to class and out of boredom started playing chess with my friends.

Hahas.

Then i went and watch the rest play and disturb them.

LOL.

I was just trying to kill the time.

It's just so weird.I wanted school to be out soon but now that's school's out,i kinda wish it won't be out just yet.

Weird eh?

Aikz.

2 weeks of total boredom.Rotting at home very single day.Anyone wanna make plans?

Hurry hurry.Limited space.Haha.

Don't mind me.

Don't know why,but everyone is rather high today with a special reason of their own including me.

:DD

i dig- 4 in the morning-gwen stefani

-i wanna hug YOU-

Boy , I Love You .
6:02 PM

[Mood:

Yo!

Taught i'd blog awhile since it my lunch time now.

Well,guess what?

I'm gonna be hosting a cooking demo show for the assembly on Monday with Nat,Cat and Ming Ying.

Haha.

Suprise right?

I know.I know.

Cooking is not really my thing.

Hahas.

Wish me luck yeah?

-stuck alone in this world withoutn you around here by my side-

Boy , I Love You .
1:11 PM

[Mood:Sick]

Suddenly,i had this really weird feeling that despite the fact that i'm having a sore throat and kept coughing,i felt kinda hyper now.

:)

I wanna get my butt outta the house right now and head on to KL with friends but sadly i don't think i can.

One cause i'm super tired and two i have to complete my BM homework.

See,i'm being hardworking ok!

School today has been rather ok can i say?

Don't ask me about yesterday.

I don't even wanna think about it.Yesterday was plain shitty.

Argh.

Thinking about it make me wanna wack someone and then cry my heart out.

I just found out a dirty secret from a great friend of mine.

Omg.

You fucking bitch.

You don't deserve a shit in life man.

You can go and rot in hell you fucking ho.

-cross the line,and watch how you die-

Boy , I Love You .
8:10 PM

[Mood:

No idea why i wanna blog right now.

I guess the boredom must have gotten to me.

Oh well.

So,i woke up at 7+ this morning cause nature calls then went back to sleep.

Felt more tired after that.

Argh.

Not going out today.Just don't really feel like.And i'm lazy to make last minute plans with my friends.

So here i am instead rotting at home.

Since i am rotting at home,i have lots of things in mind to think about at last.

Oh yeah.

---

Anyone wanna get a part time job?

There's two sessions available.

Morning and night session.

Pay ranging from $50 onwards depending on the post that your holding and the time.

Male and female applicants wanted.Prefers male.

School students below 17 not allowed to come and apply for job application.

Open to all schools.Message me for more information.

---

I have done SO much thinking today that it kinda freaks me out just thinking about it.

And once again,thank you Jason L so much for your support this few days.

I don't know what am i gonna do without you.Without you i'm nothing.

I really wanna hit myself everytime i think about all the times where i've hurt you so badly but still you never stop loving me and kept protecting me.

But i miss-read your signs of protecting me and pushed you aside.I'm sorry Jason L.

Now i understand after recently what had happen.

To all you guys out there who are still not sure of my relationship with Jason L,he's not my boyfriend,or my best friend,or my pet bro.

He's a great combo of all the above and even more.

So can't call him my official boyfriend,or you cna't call him my pet bro or best friend either.

He's more like my life partner.

Someone that i know will stay forever in my life till the very end.

I'm sorry for making you wait,but i don't wanna make another wrong decision and ruin everything.

Because its better for us to stay this way then to take a shaky step forward and stumble down faster then we came up.

I know you will definetly understadn how i feel and i love you so much for that.

Thanks again for never giving up on me and always standing by my side through good and bad times.

I love ya to bits.

:)

-it's me and you-

Boy , I Love You .
12:19 PM

SMILES :)

[Mood:Sleepy]

Gonna be a short and simple post.

We had a school trip to the National Zoo yesterday and although going to the zoo is kinda childish for people my age,but who cares,i had great fun whenever i'm with my dear friends.

Everyone looked really excited.Reached there early and went in.

Started walking around with Suat Ying and then Edayu and Celine joined us.

Had lots of fun seeing all sorts of different animals.

Saw lots of monkeys.

So cute~! ><

Took lots of silly photos along the way.

Went to the repltile house and saw lots of disgusting looking snakes.

Eeeew!!

Went for lunch at the only available air-condition restaurant available if i'm not wrong.

Ate,played with the jukebox,craked crazy jokes and laughed our ass off.

At the end of the dya,everyone had lots of fun,no doubt.

Including me.

:)

But obviously was extremly exhausted after that.

Oh yeah..

My results.

Sejarah- 83%

English Paper 1- 37/40

Geography- A (not sure of the total mark yet,but its an A told by Mr.Pau) FYI,this is the first time i scored A for Geo ok.

That's all for now.

Will update when i get my results later on.

-can't erase,the way our kisses taste-

Boy , I Love You .
5:20 PM

[Mood:Thinking]

Yo~!

No idea what's with me todya,but i was acting plain crazy with my friends in school.

You know i'm talking about you.

:)

Anyway,apart from all the fun and the fact that i'm laughing my ass off like an idiot,today was a pretty tough day for me in a certain way.

Emotionally challenging.

Seriously tough ok.

><

Tomorrow's the last day for my Mid Term Examiation.

For me tis pretty sad.

No more sleeping in class already.

Sad right?

Hahas.

Someone inspired me so strongly yesterday that i'm so thankfuk to you.

Thank you.

You're more like my life savour at such a moment.

And i promised you a suprise that none of your gal friends have ever given to you.

Thanks dude.

-i'll always cherish the good times that we had together-

Boy , I Love You .
7:40 PM

HYPER

[Mood:-]

Hey.

:)

Dunno why but i can't keep my mouth shut today.

Kept blabbing out secrets to my friends.

Opps.

Gonna stop now.

:X

Bye.

-i don't love you anymore-

Boy , I Love You .
1:21 PM

[Mood:-]

So sorry for not updating for almost a week.

I've been very busy lately and also at the same time having my Mid Term Exams.

Anyway,too many things happened that i don't know where exactly to start.

Both the good and the bad happened.

><

And i admit that there's alot of tears spilled.

Basically,school sucked even more with the mere presence of those idiots and bitches.

Seeing the people that i hate doesn't help much either.

Trying to cramp as much as i could into my head as well.

Phew.

Glad that my exam is gonna be over next Tuesday.

Well,i wanna start blogging about yesterday alright?

School was a total bore.Had my Sejarah exam yesterday.

Everyone wasn't honest on their part.

*Ahem*

Would not mention much here as i know teachers are reading my blog and if they see certain things that shouldn't reach their eyes,well,lets just say many classmates of mine are getting into deep shit.

:D

Anyway,came home and saw some crap post by a certain someone.Only my bestiez will know who i am talking about.

Aki,Mariah,Jason L called me later on.

As i relieve the tale to them,my eyes immediately filled itself up with tears,but i did control it.

Only until i talk to Aki that it came spilling out.

I just can't hold it back any longer.

It's not easy at all.

---

Today was suppose to attend the Choral Speaking's final at Alamanda.I've got invitation to go along with Mr.George.

But he couldn't make it and i forgotten to take the pass from him so i ended up not going as well.

Then he rang me up and we talked bout it.He said we'll go next.Well,hopefully i'm still in Sedaya then.

Or not.

You will never know.

:)

So i rotted at home and end up watching this reality show from Taiwan.

After watching it i felt so inspired.

And for once i finally understand that i must learn to give up on him already.

And that is what i'm going to do now without any other reasons.

Popo aren't you proud that i manage to do it at last?

Wait.

Correction.

I tried to do it at last.

-i'm starting to learn to let you go-

Boy , I Love You .
5:25 PM

WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER ANYMORE?

[Mood:Headache,headache,headache]
[Listening to:Shou Ai Ni by Jolin Tsai]

Argh.

The pain i'm bearing right now is really killing me.

Had an encounter with a bastard just now.

Oh my.

What a waste of time.

Come and disturb people who's busy doing things and try to act cool in the process.

Omg.

---

School today was rather boring.

Rotted in class practically the whole day.

CCA period is cancelled so we hads to stay in class for that period as well.

Thank God i had my phone with me.Whenever my teacher left the class we started playing the music from our phones and MP4 while cracking stupid jokes.

:)

After school train the girls for the parents night performance.

It wasn't easy at all with that big asshole around disturbing us.

You know i'm talking about you.

At least we managed to get something straight.

This post is plain crappy along with my totally crappy day.

Boy , I Love You .
3:33 PM

[Mood:=(]
[Listening to:Goodies by Ciara]

I'm having a headache now due to all the stress and problems that's building up inside my head.

So don't come and mess with me now or i'll bite your head off.

:)

I'm pretty busy right now with practically everything.

I have a Mid Term coming up in exactly like less then a week?

I have to train the new group of coral speakers in less then a month time to get them ready and picture perfect for the performance on parents night?

I also have to chereograph a dance routine for a group of performers?And i have to make it totally flawless or else i will get the shits from people?

I also have to get Aishah ready for Digi Celebriteen competition which audition is just around the block?

I also have held audition for the coral speakers?

Then arrange the time for the next few upcoming uber huge events?

And i have to plan everythin in time for everyone or else my head will be chop off just like that.

And not to mention PMR this year?

Argh.

My head really felt like exploding this very second.I have to keep taking pills to ease the pain.

You get what am i going through already?

So please stop giving me shit in school ok?

And stop creating stupid fucking rumours about me and Charlie alright?

Yeah.I'm mentioning his name here.So what?

Yupp.Of course i'm scared that you fuckers out there will create more rumours when you see his name here although its nothing.

Btw,there's nothing going on between us anymore.No matter how much that hurts me(yeah,i admit that i do like him before and so does he,we confessed),but so what?

You jealous bastards out there ruin everything for us.And i have to suffer all this shit now.

And i'm not even friends with him anymore.Do you guys know one thing?

You're all fucking heartless.Yeah.I'm talking about you fucking Sedayans that did this shit to me.

Not all of you all,but some of you guys.

Blady fuckers.

So now,i don't give a fucking damm anymore.You wanna gossip about me go ahead.

You wanna listen to idiots or create crap about me having sex with Nate,go ahead.Why,cause i don't give a fucking damm like i said earlier!

Most importamt is that i know the truth and that my friends know about the truth.

You're just jealous cause your 17 and never had experience real love or either tried the very least to hook up with a girl.

I suppose that's why you had to sneak into small pubs and call for prostitutes?

I seriusly pity you man.

You ugly and pathetic.

Dude,go get a life man.

And stop ruining other people's one.

Phewww.

I'm glad i got that outta my chest.

I felt a little more relieve now.

:)

And i can continue to plaster fake smiles on my face when i meet idiots tomorrow.

*suck it all in*

Anyway,if it wasn't for all the atention i get from you guys,i would have not gotten this famous that fast for a newbie right?

Hahas.

Asshole.

Well,as i sais,my mood ain't that good and i've got alot of work to do.

So,bye.

-go drown yourself in all the things that you've said about me and him-

Boy , I Love You .
8:02 PM

[Mood:Sleepyyyy]
[Listening to:-]

In school now.You get the point.

:D

I went and pre-order the Harry Potter's 7th and final book of the series by J.K Rowling, "Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows".

I'm so excited.I can't wait for the book to be released in July.

Gee.Atleast i have something to look forward to.

Oh yeah.

Besides that,i have lotsa upcoming events in the next few months starting with this month itself.

So expect lotsa photos.I pormise that i would upload it this time wihtou excuses.

:)

---

I was kinda shock just now when Jazz approach me and ask me for help.I would not mention much here just yet,as i'm trying to avoid controversies from happening just yet.

You get the point don't you?

Haha.

As you all know,i never fail to get attention anywhere i go.And i don't have to try so hard that its obvious for people to see,unlike some people.

Hell yeah i'm talking about you.

Oh yeah i nearly forget to mention it.Starting from this month i'm gonna start promoting models/new faces here at my blog for discoveries.Why?

First i'm doing my friend a favour and second i am hired to do so.

So do expect lotsa new faces to appear at my blog.And once again i promise that i would post as much as i can that my time allows me to do so.

Till then,you would just have to stay tuned to find out more about it.

I have no idea why,but i suddenly felt like booking a plane to taiwan to vist my lovelies.I miss you guys so fucking much!!!~

Hopefully after the Mid Term exams i can take a month or two of school and fly there to join you guys.

:D

I'm gonna stop crapping here,before i get into too much details of my up coming plan which i am soooo excited about.

=3

-Accidentally in love-

Boy , I Love You .
9:25 AM

[Mood:Hyper]
[Listening to:-]

So sorry for the lack of updates yeah.

Jason L was already hunting me down for that.Hahas.

FYI people are you guys really blur or just plain blind?

Can't you guys notice here that i specifically wrote there Jason L?Which stands for Jason Lim?

Its not Jason Cheah ok.I would definetly not mention that fucking bastards name here.

Oh well.

Since i'd mention his name here already,i might as well do some trashing which i love to.

Don't give me that kinda what the fuck look alright?You guys (esspecially the SEDAYANS) kept labelling me as "lala",damm gal,bitch etc.

So why not just live up to it right?

:)

Well,first things first.I DO NOT like Jason Cheah alright?

I would rather die single then to get involve with a cheap fucker like him.

Why?

Cause his such a fucking asshole that loves to backstab all his friends,note the word ALL.Yes.I'm talking about every single one of you out there.

Even his so call "brothers", the form 5 dudes.

Yeahhhh...

He backstab every single one of you all.

And he backstab me as well.

For me,backstabbing happens every single day in my life.Why?Cause i choose to live a life different from the rest of you all.What kinda life?Go figure it out yourself.It wouldn't be that hard to guess right?Ok la.Unless your a total bimbo. :D

Anyway,back to the backstabber dude.

So what did he do till i hate him so much?

Well,let me start at the part that he *ahem* likes to use girls...........for SEX..?

Chill.

I know you guys here at Sedaya are all innocent people and hearing that word might shock you up nicely.

Yeah right.Whatever.

Anyway,he did something bad about that,not to me of course or he'll be dead by now. :)

I can't mention the whole thing here just YET cause it would just ruin everything.But rest assure,for everyone that knows me well enough,they all should know that whoever that piss me off big time will get payback right?

Hahas.

So stay tune to find out what happens to the oh-so-great-dude-in-bed a.k.a Jason Cheah the gay fucker.

Ah.

That feels so much better.

Well,as usual,life has been hactic for me.

With my Mid terms and all coming,i hardly find time to do anything else and when i do i kept picturing the time that i ahve left to study.

Argh.

Mental stress.

Soooo not good for your health.

XD.

Well,schools re-opening tomorrow again.Seriously,i felt damm fucking sad just thinking about it.

Again,why?

Cause i have to face people that i hate,people that i wish i could just go and slap in the face and also him.

And nto to mention that sometimes people in my school are plain childish.Shouting his name out loud?

And for a ccertain bitch,thinking that it is revenge?

Oh.My.Fucking.God.

Someone please save me?!

Miss SLut,you serioulsy have no idea how the outside world is like.You must learn man.

Oh well.

I'm going to stop here and proceed to replying my testis at Friendster before i get hunt down there.

-remind me again,what the hell is going on?-

Boy , I Love You .
10:37 PM

hahas.

here's the new skin.

enjoy.

Boy , I Love You .
4:36 PM

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