Counting Back On Time ♥

[Mood:Freaking sleepy]
[Listening to:If Everyone Care by Nickleback]

Back at last~~!

This year's Chinese New Year was not as exciting as last years.Everywhere seem more quiet.Even the sound of firecrackers are lesser heard.

Went to JB and Ipoh for the chinese new year gathering thingy.Didn't get to meet up with Sabrina to go to After 5.Was a little dissapointed.So instead i went and visited my friends and head over to Loose with them.

Its just awesome.Meeting up with your old friends,people that you knew best and felt comfortable around adn just sitting there,eating until you can puke,drinking booze till you get sick and chatting the night away.

Jason L,Jason C and Sei Yong >3 accompanied me on this whole trip without fail day and night.Not that they never accompany me but they spent all their time to accomapny me just cause i'm bored and wanna chat.Thanks so much you guys..Love you guys to bits..^^

After spending two days in Johor went to Ipoh,my mom's hometown.Meet with my fav cousins.Meet more lala people and made new friends.My dad wasn't really happy bout it though.-.-

Stayed up late chatting with the new friends(they're hot!~XD),sms-ing with friends and hitting the pubs there.

The place there is really lively at night.And the lala people here are the true lalas.Haha..

Ate lunch in the evening and ate my dinner in the morning.Haha..My timing is all gone.Watched lots and lots of movies till late in the morning with my new friends,Kevin,Sam,Yew Soon and the rest.

End up sleeping at 6+ in the morning and waking up at 10 to continue visiting.Was feeling super tired.On the second day of my Ipoh trip,went to Lumut for a gathering there.All five families are gonna be there.All of them are my mom's brothers.

They rented an apartment there.But the problem was he only rented one apartment there.How are five families gonna spend the night there with only three small rooms?

Before this he said he was gonna rent two apartments.But when we reach there he said he only rent one and he expect us all to sleep in 3 small bedrooms.Oh good.How smart of him.

Had a very,very lousy dinner.And again its cause of him.He decide to prepare steamboat for dinner.First of all i dislike steamboat and second of all the steamboat he and his wife made sucks.

I just ate like two spoons of rice and called that my dinner?Everyone else doesn't seem to enjoy it either.Who would?

All the other kids/teens just ate a lilttle bit and went and did their things afterwards.Children ran around,adults sat and chat while us teens just sat there chatting and apart from that just basically doing nothing.

Why don't he just allow the others to help in organising this gathering.People suggest BBQ but he didn't want it.BBQ is so much better in many ways ok.

The adults(guys) played mah jong.The women watched them and gossip.The apartment was so noisy i spent most of the time outside or in the room talking on the phone and sms-ing.I mean what else can i do there?

My dad decide to go rent a room cause there's juts not enought space for everyone to sleep there.So my uncle's family came with us and went and find a hotel that's still available and not fully booked.

Left the apartment at 1 am in the morning and went to have an actual dinner.Headed to one of the hottest night spot.Lots of pubs and clubs there.Clubbers all around.Hanging out.Again saw many lala people.

After that went to the hotel that my uncle booked.He said that's the nearest and only available hotel left.Sooo..when i went there i was shock to see the so called hotel is so kampung style.I was just totally speechless and hoped that the rooms doesn't turn out as bad as how it looked outside.

Took the key from the front desk and climbed to the first floor.I held my breath when my dad open the door.When i step in i just don't know wheather to laugh or stand there looking bewildered.The room is horrible.There's two queen sized beds.One totally old and worn out cupboard.A small dressing table that's really dusty.And a small television set.

Not just that.Instead of having a normal telephone like all the other hotels does,this one has a pay phone instead.Like wtf?!

My mom teased me and asked me to take a photo of it for my blog.Like what the hell man?!I just stood there and stared at the room feeling really disgusted.The toilet's really filthy.How i managed to actually sleep after that i have no idea.Guessed i was really really exhausted.

Woke up early the next morning and check out asap.Just couldn't stand being in that room any longer.Went out for breakfast and head back to my uncle's house.Spent anotehr day there hanging out with friends adndrinking till late in the morning.

Came back today.Wasd glad that i can finally sleep in my very own bed but apart from that i'm kinda sad to leave the new friends that i've just made.Oh well.There's always a next visit there.

Really exhausted now.Will update more later.Bye.

Boy , I Love You .
10:51 PM

Taken last during Christmas Eve last year.Back when i was having straight hair.

Everyone was spraying those can stuffs and lots of laughters were going on inside and outside of the pub.Bottom line,everyone had fun.Including me.=)

Joylyn already left for Perth,Australia early this year.Gonna miss you alot girl.No idea why i decide to post up this picture all of a sudden.Maybe it's because of the memories that is still held within that picture.

If only life was really simple.Everyone don't need to feel sad.No responsibilities.No problems at all.All you had to do is just to lead a simple and problem free life.That indeed will be the perfect life.

*sigh*

Anyway back to reality..

Today's chinese new year eve.Received my ang paos from my parents.Had a reunion dinner with my family.My mom wanna keep things simple by having it at home.She bought some of everything needed to complete feast.In that way we can avoid the rush outside and take our own sweet time.

Wondering how much money will i get this year?Jason C predicted that the amount i'm gonna receive from my parents itself would atleast be 3K.

=.=

Hopefully my relatives will be more generous this year.Like that i can get more.Argh..no work during for the next whole week.More freedom but no idea what am i gonna do then.Esspecially at Ipoh.At Johor atleast i can hang out with Sabrina at our pubs.But at Ipoh where am i gonna go?Who am i gonna hang with?Those lala zai again?

Nahh..

My dad would definetly not like that idea at all.Besides that i'll be eating chinese food every single day.OmG.i know la..I'm a chinese and its chinese new year so give and take for once..bla bla bla..

But it just makes me sick thinking of all the same food.Esspecially during dinner.And when i told Aishah that she told me instead that she was craving for chinese food.-.-

Got lots of firecrakers with me now.Gonna try them out later.Haha..Who wants some?=P

Gonna go disturb someone now..will update later ^^

Boy , I Love You .
9:16 PM

[Mood:Gila-Gila Sleepy]
[Listening to:Gary Chaw Ge]

Another emo day for me.And again its all cause of him.

Dammit.I'm so fucking sick of feeling all sad and emo cause of him again.If he's worth it then that's another thing.But the question now is that is he worth it?

Gosh.

I sometimes feel so mad at myself for letting myself fall for in love again.But on the other hand i can't control my feelings.Even if i know that i might get hurt again.

Yeah.I know i'm really stupid in handling all these things.

I was kind enough toback down a it and decide to talk to him.But our conversation lead to nowhere.Barely a few minutes of talk.Cause he got class and the principal is just outside at the corridor and if she catches a boy and girl alone at the dark area..@_@

Only me and Joey among us four taht went to school today.Thanks Joey for coming to accompany me.^^

Mr.Shasi demostrated how to cook meehoon today and we get to eat them later.Co-incidently that bitch joins the same club as me.Oh great.

During break went to watch them practicedancing again.Well,its better then attending classes and having to see him.

Chatted with Soo Yee and Mei Jin.Got to know each other more.

After that spent more time hanging out with Jason.Got to know him more.

Dad fetched me,my sis and my bro home today.Went for lunch at SS 19.Jason sms me and we started chatting.

Found out that i'll be going to a few places next week.Johor,to meet up with Sabrina then Ipoh.

Gonna miss my friends here~~! T.T

Well..will update later..

Bye..

-Maybe loving you is the wrong thing..-

Boy , I Love You .
5:57 PM

Sabrina & Joey >33

PosE~~!

Aiman..

Me & Jazz

Mei Jin

Sabrina~~

Stupid poses =P

Pan cuTe..WakAkaKah~~!!

FucK eUu~!

>3 u guys to bits..

Me & Mei Jin

Me & Sabrina

Pei Yi & Sabrina

Miie & Joey

Aiman again.

Me & Su Chin

fooling around xD

SuSu~~

lolxx..=.=

Pei Yi,Jenson,Me,Sabrina,Joey

Me & Jenson

Boy , I Love You .
11:05 PM

[Mood:Irritable]
[Listening to:

Urgh.

I was in such a bad mood today.I was trying my best to control my temper but then in the end i just couldn't take it anymore.

School started out ok.Had some fun with friends.Managed to ge tmy mind off him for a little while.Well,atleast that's a start.

The girls wanna practice dancing today so yeah we skipped computer and when and watch them instead.Joey and Sabrina drag me along despite the fact that i wanna go online instead.

Ahhh well..

Sooo..Mei Jin started teaching them a few simple moves first and it took them quite awhile to master it.What with all the laughter and all going on its good already that they can master a few steps.

Spent time sitting there listening to music and watching them practice.Hell it was funny.

Later on took many pics.Had fun again.

But hitngs totally change after lunch.Had KH after lunch and teacher told us to do this project thingy.My team members are Joey,Sabrina and Pei Yi.That's when i totally lost it.

I was already trying to control my temper and Pei Yi went and open her mouth and start crapping away.Its not until the part that she do not wanna come to school the next day to help with the project that i totally lost it.

I scolded her and screwed the shit outta her.Just couldn't take her stupid attitude anymore.She argued back a little bit and started crying.

Fuck.As if i give a damm that your crying.No one bother to confort her at all.Not even the teacher.

Calm down a bit after that.Everyone knows i'm really pissed off.Sabrina got more serious with the project immedietly.-.-

Saw Charlie and Su Chin talking after that.Then Su Chin came and ask em why i never talk to Charlie anymore.And he's asking her the same thing.

I lost it again one more time.I told Su Chin to pass back him a message saying if he wanna talk to me then come and talk to me.Don't expect me to go and talk to him again.And lots of other mean stuffs.But i knew where to draw the line.After school i saw him talking to Sabrina.Sabrina then told me that he asked her why i was angry bla bla bla..

Sabrina ask him go figure himself.He look so sad.From the look i see on his face and what Sabrina said.

Urgh..

Will upload the photos later.

-How long will you wanna keep this going on?When will you finally make the move?I'm sorry,but if this is what ur playing at i think its over..-

Boy , I Love You .
10:20 PM

[Mood:EMO gila-gila]

[Listening to:Jing Jing De by Harlem Yu]

The roses i received in school.

Aikz..

Sadly the ONE person that i wanna receive the rose from did not give me one.Don't talk bout giving me roses he did not even wish me.We are like trying to avoid each others eye contact and at teh same time looking at each other whenever we caught sight of each other.

This year's Valentine's Day totally suck for me.It's by far the worst one i've gone through.If it wasn't for my friends i dunno how am i gonna pull through another sucky day.

Cheong Yun promised to come visit me at school today and he did.He brought another two more friends.One's Kah Seng the other one is..errmm.wats his name again?Sorry yea if your reading this.

Anyway Cheong Yun made my day.Thanks budddy~~!

I asked Aaron to come along but he can't cause he's in his home town now.Only will be back next next Saturday.Cheong Tat's coming back tonight if i'm not wrong.Finally..If only Aaron's still here we 4 can all hang out together de..T.T

Anyway bout today..

I actually wanna stay home but Jason convinced me to go.Ask me to go face him.He said i can't hide from him forever and that i should face it all.He's really good at convincing people.

Sooo..had two tests today.Geo and Bm paper 2.The questions are much lesser than government's school type.Only 25 questions for Geo and a simple ringkasan,3 questions follow up and 1 question for the novel that we study.

Flunk my Geo test.My teacher saw the way we answer the questions and helped us out.Even gave me a few answers..through hint of course~!

Apart from that its really been a totally emo day for me and my friends.Everyone almost end up in tears.Someone even did.All cause of some fuckers fault.I just don't get it with all these bastards.Go get a life ok..!If you wanna go around fucking people then you better just o fuck your own self.Blady bitches.

I know your reading this.And if your still fucking unhappy then come and find me straight away.Don't waste your time and my time by going around spreading bullshit bout us ok.

Better of i just get it all cleared out now.I hereby state that there's nothing between me and him ok!!Nothing.Nada.Zilt.Zilch.So puh-lease stop mis-understanding and kept thinking that i'm stealing him away from you guys.Cause i'm not.

Yeah..I admit.I do like him.Correction.WE LIKE EACH OTHER.If you wanna compete with me for him then bring it on.I have no reason to back out just cause you like him also.Play things fair not the other way round please.What's de point of winning if you use those dirty and nasty tricks?

Well..back to today..

Later on the students deliver the roses.I've got two of it.One from Sabrina and the otehr from someone else.Damian deliver one of the roses to me and when he call me he look sooo blur.Haha..

If your reading this sorry yea..Still wanna get to know you better.^^

Finally school ended and guess what?He never did anything at all.What de fuck?!

I dunno what the fuck is he afraid off.I can't fucking take it anymore.I decided to talk to him tomorrow and settle everything once and for all.So wish me luck eh?

Came home and went out to dinner with my darling pet brothers!!At that moment when they came by suprised i was really touched!The xin fu feeling.The feeling taht someone actually cares for you.Someone that will be there for you no matter what.They took me out to dinner at a restaurant in KL.Forgotten the name.BBQ restaurant.

Food was awesome.Had fun.No pics though.Too lazy to take them.Came home bout 10+.

Gotten more roses,stuff toys and all from them.Chocalates too.^^

Thanks so much Jason,James,Sean,Yk,Steven and Ben.

Specially to Jason who planned everything for me.

*I lap you Jason*

Wonder how will things go tomorrow?For better or for worse?Keep reading to find out.

-Baby,plese don't keep me hanging on any longer..-

Boy , I Love You .
10:46 PM

[Mood:Exhausted]
[Listening to: Shu Dao Wu Gao Zhu Wo by Gary Chaw Ge]

Gosh.I freaking love this song.

Again..so much goddamn things has happened this week.Lots of shit if i may say so.Well i'm glad its all over.

Anyway here's Friday's post.

Had cross country event today.I didn't want to run at first but my mom insist that i should participate in school activites.

=.=

So yea whatever i went.Sabrina and Joey are going also so i guess it won't be that bad would it?

Sooo...

The event started off at 8+ and the girls start off the run.I ran and ran until there's a stitch in my stomach only i began to slow down and result into a jog instead and in the end just brisk walking.

Pei Yi was such a good friend by leaving me alone behind to walk alone.Yeah some friend she is..

So i end up walking with the form 5's instead.Soon the guys start to catch up with us.I also saw them.So semangat la the way they jog.

I am stuck to walk with the two girls that i dislike.It's just so awkward.

So i kept motivating myself to complete the run and finally i reached the school.I still had to make a huge round around the field before reaching the finishing line.So yeah i completed that too just in time according to the 25 minutes time limit to complete the run.

Went and search for Joey and Sabrina.Saw them in the cafeteria bought a drink and flop down on the nearest chair.My legs felt sooo jelly-like.Joey then said that the pain would surely be much worse tomorrow and we all know its true.Great..

Went and sat at the benches later.Saw the guys on the floor looking really exhausted.Later on they announce the winners.Yingki won for the girls category followed by Suat Ying.

Jone and Justin both won.Forgotten what place they got though.

So after that we went and sell more cards tto the primary kids.They are so not co-operative.Can't they just remember to bring the money needed to pay for the cards they order and not having to make us going back there every single day to look for them to ask them to pay up?

Urgh..*takes a deep breath*

Tried to sell some cards to the St.John teachers that will be teaching us first aid lessons for the next 8 weeks and we succeed in making them buy it.They are a bunch of young guys.The youngest one is just 17 years old only.><

Everyone was staring at us talking to them.-.- Later on tried to sell some cards to Form 5 Beta.It obviously wasn't easy.With Jone and all there.Something ermm..embarassing happened involving me and Charlie when i was in that class with Joey and Sabrina.i kena tease by the guys.Something like that la..

And after a long time looking at the cards Jone did not even buy 1 card and end up saying he'll buy them next Monday.Rightttt...

Made Jason buy one also..Thx Jason..Also made James,Nicholas,Aiman's brother(forgetten his name) and Aiman buy a card each.Wakakah..we are so evil..XD

Stayed back for the first meeting of the first aid lesson.We entered late and everyone stared at us.A few people taht i dislike are there too.Oh crap.

So one of the teachers sat at an empty table in front of us and we kept throwing things at him.Haha..It was fun indeed..

After the meeting we went and ate lunch.Kenny came and join us.Me and Kenny had fun disturbing Sabrina.=P

Went out and saw Samuel and his friends.Saw the first aid teachers and chatted with them.They are two totally different people during duty time and off duty.Samuel all was like staring at me talking to them.Doesn't mean cause of C i can't talk to other guys ok.

Later on everyone left just me,my brother and Kenny left.Chatted more with Kenny.

Went home around 4+..Slept..bath..dinner..on9..

blahh..

What a long day..

Chinese new year holiday is coming soon.One week without school means one week without seeing friends and him.That sucks.So what if i get ang pau?Big deal.I rather meet my friends instead.

Argh..I'm getting more emo nowadays.

-Looking into ur eyes gives me a ray of light full with hope of something new-

Boy , I Love You .
4:18 PM

[Mood:
[Listening to:

Sorry for the long delay..

Was having a little problem with blogger the other day and i just gave up on blogging for like the whole week?

Anyway so MUCH has happen this week.I seriously dunno where to start at all.

Blah..

Let's just skip all that and get to what happen yesterday.

[Yesterday's post]

Didn't get much sleep last night.Was up till late in the morning sms-ing with friends and just went i'm about to fall asleep my phone rang and it was Joey.I taught she was already fast asleep.-.-

So woke up hours later feeling totally exhausted and disgrunted.The only thing that actually kept me going was the fact that i'll be seeing him in school and i'm also going to Yingki's birthday party at night with Sabrina and Joey.

Got up,get dress,grab all my stuffs and i'm off to school.

Oh btw did i mention that i'm sitting bus to school now?

No?..

Yup.I'm sitting bus.

Why you ask?For some reasons that i'd rather not mention here.Haha..

Back to the story..

Found out John did not come to school.Was a tiny little bit dissapointed cause i'm dead bored in the bus and now i have no one to chat with.

End up listening to music on my phone instead.Today everyone's (almost everyone) is dresses in their PE attires cause the teachers are taking the whole secondary students out to show us the route for the cross country run next friday.

I'm thinking for a split second that Charlie,Justin and Jone won't turn up cause they are not really that kinda person that likes this kinda stuff.Well,not Justin atleast.

But when we que up at the hall i saw them and they all came except for John.

-.-

So after much hassle the teachers manage to get our attention and we start walking in the cool morning breeze.

It's a good thing we had to walk in a line according to our forms.In that way no need to walk with people that you dislike.

So soon the weather got warmer and you can feel the heat.The walk was much longer thatn we tought it'd be.

When they finally lead us back to the school i was glad it was all over.Me and Sabrina are feeling hungry and are really looking forward to breakfast once we reach school.

I pity the guys(form 3-5) as they can't retuen to school just yet and have to continue walking outside of Sunway area lead by Mr.Shasi.

But guess what???

When we return school they make us round the whole field for nothing and then que up under the hot sun.That's not all.Mr.George said that we will be que-ing up according to our uniform bodies and practice marching!~

WtF?!

You've gotta be fucking kidding me.

Everyone was already so exhausted and onyl result in doing what we're told to.No semangat at all.Who can blame them?

So we had to march till the boys complete their walk and only allow to go for our break later.When we reach our classroom only did we realise that it's lock.

Oh great.

So we waited there for awhile and ended up borrowing money from someone to buy food and drinks.

We ate a little bit but felt full instantly.

Went back to class and just chat with friends.No studies today.

School ended then bought lunch from the stall outside of school.

Waited for Sabrina's transport to come and then went to Sabrina's house.

Hung out there,chat,fooled around,played with Sabrina's iguana and scared the shit outta Joey.Bottom line..We had fun.We'll atleast for now.

We then bath,changed and get ready for Yingki's party.

Yingki's party.That's when it all sink in again.Charlie and Justin won't be able to make it tonight.Justin can't come cause his pet sis birthday is on the same day and Charlie can't come cause he dosen't know the place and he says he has no transport.

We left around 5+ and walked to Yingki's house.The area is so freaking huge and we had a hard time finding the place.On the way Charlie called me and i kept on asking him to come.He told me he can't cause he gotta go to church at 8.John had to go at 6.

-.-

Handed the phone over to Sabrina and she force him (with hushed tones) to come.

Here's where it all begin.Sabrina ask him if he likes me.He didn't want to admit by saying "I dunno." and "Why should i tell you?"

But we manage to force it outta him and he said "Yes.I really like Joanne.But i can't be with her now.."

Joey and Sabrina stare at me.I just look speechless with anxiety to know more.

We put him on speaker mode and Sabrina forced him (again) for the reason.He then told us the reason taht made me wanna just sit there and cry,cry,cry.

My face totally fell.Whatever happy feeling/mood inside was gone in an instant.Like taking a vacuum and sucking everything out.

Sabrina argued/scolded(with vulgar words),yelled at him.

He sound as if we just forced the deepest darkest secret outta him.His voice sound so..hurt..

But i had no time for guilty feeling that time.I felt like breaking down.I told Sabrina to end the conversation and at last we reach Yingki's house.Suddenly he sms me saying "I dunno what i want to say.I just want to say i'm sorry."

I didn't know what to reply so i didn't.Saw the bunch of "idiots" at Yingki's house.What else could go wrong?

Hang out there for awhile and went over to the park with Sean and his friend.Me,Sabrina and Joey went and sat at swings.They kept trying to cheer me up.But nothing they do can make me smile.

It's so ahrd.Trying to smile to everyone while deep down inside your tearing up and fighting back tears.

At last i couldn't take it anymore but i managed to get a grip on myself and cried just a little bit.

Ahhhh..

Felt a bit better after that.At least i can smile a little more.Went back to Yingki's house and suddenly everyone was asking me.."What happened?I heard you argue/break up with someone.Is it true?"

What the?How the hell they know?

Had BBQ for dinner.We 3 ate very very little.We're just pretty thirsty and can't wait for the booze to arrive.And so it did later.They got Carlsberg but no Heineken.What a bummer.Oh well.Atleast there's beer right?

So drank some beer and just when we feel hungry(at last!we had no appetite at all the whole day),Sabrina's parents came and they say she had to go.So me and Joey followed cause we don't wanna walk back to her house in the dark and we are not familiar with the roads.

Went to Sabrina's house and head straight to her room.Joey left a little while after that.Just me and Sabrina left.Her mom ordered pizza for us.lolx..

Ate pizza and chat.My dad ask me of my friend could send me to Sri Melur near Giant cause he can't find the way there.So called Yingki again and she and her uncle came to pick me up.

On the way i message with Charlie.He tought i was mad at him.But funny i wasn't.So i told him that and the rest are private.But after sorting things out with him i felt as if a huge boulder has been lifted from my shoulder.

The relieve feeling.And the thing now is that we are no longer just friends.It's more then friends.

I'm sure you guys get what i mean.Not couple or anything ok.He said we can't right now.

A part of me just understood and did not push/rush him.

Came home around midnight bath and went out for an actual dinner with Jason at the mamak stall near my house.

*i'll be waiting.."

Labels: Standing here, waiting for you..

Boy , I Love You .
5:15 PM

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