yesterday wuz so tiring..but fun!~ i went to skol as usual den terus go find dat bladysharpener syamiela came along.cant believe dat blady sharpener still dare bargain wif me wen shud i find her n all.WtF?! den we ask her to follow us to de tangga der.our old spot to lepak.everyone took a spot while i make sharpener stand in de middle.she wuz freaking out. -.-
den i questioned her bout de rumors thing.she didnt wan to admit.i told myself to be patient n i asked her de same questions a few more times.she said she dun remember a single thing at all.so i told her dat i noe a way to make her remember .she asked me wat way izzit?den i took my bottle of water n splash it at her face making her stood der in shock.she wuz socking wet from head to toe.
den she slowly wait for her to wipe herself yada yada.. den we questioned her again.still dun wanna admit.she evenchallengesheila to slap her fucking face.so sheila came up to her n gave her a nice slap on her face.syamiela gasp.no one expected sheila to slap her.sharpener cried der.so we had to wait for her to finish crying again.den wen she's done i spent lots of time to questioned her again.
dis time she really got on my nerves.i pushed her towards de wall.den i began to scold her.n again she challenge me to slap her.de fuck..so i got really impatient n while i wuz scolding her i gave her a nice slap on her fucking face.afterall she deserves it.dne dis time she cried sooo bladly.i mean it.she cried till she's lyk gonna collapsed n die any second.i just stood der n stare.sheila n de rest panicked.i nvr seen dem panic in dis way b4..
i guess maybe i'm justplain cold hearted.or maybe i'm not.maybe its bcuz of wat she had done to me dat cuz me to hate her so much.more even wanting her to die.i lose two most important n precious ppl in my lyf all cuz of her.how can i ever make myself forgive her?????
at nyte i cried silent tears again..i just cant help it.it's just too hard for me to accept de factdat dey r gone..i felt lyka piece of my lyfis missing n will nvr ever be able to be patched back not matter wateva hapen..der is still a hole left der.oni time will tell..
