yesterday wuz supposed 2 be a completly fun day fer me..at least i tot it wud be..de first half of it wuz awesome!~but not fer de second half...newayz let me start wif de first half first..
mornin went on9 den sms my dear.. later on went on9 n at de same time had 2 do my stupid project..=.= den gotten ready fer skol.. 2day plannin 2 skip skol.. reached skol n meet up wif huey min... den later mariah n liyana came..waitin fer sheila 2 cum.. thank god she came down earlier...~phew~ den me, mariah, huey min,sheila,steffi n liyana went out.. first we went 2 de bookshop..spent alot of time der while huey min went 2 de bakery first.. de rest of us spent lotsa time der.. at de same time me n mariah is sporting de cute guy at de back of de shop..xD den finally wen we r all done we went 2 de bakery while liyana n steffi head back 2 skol.. huey min is so pissed off wit us.. i guess its cuz we came back real late.. sowie ya huey min...>< den we ordered food n went 2 7-11 2 buy maggi fer huey min.. saw so many ppl der.. michelle thx fer ur money.. >3 u always.. den went back 2 bakery ate de food n after buyinb magazine went 2 mariah's hse n lepak der.. we went 2 mariah's room n sheila n mariah tried out mariah's new guitar.. huey min is into her own world of comic.. while i sit der n read mag + listen 2 dem play guitar.. den later went downstairs cuz sheila n huey min wants 2 play wif mariah's cat Mischief.. mariah cant stop reading my msg n sheila n huey min is on her side..boohoo~ den suddenly sheila n huey min got 2 de floor n started doin sumthin..no idea wat at first.. den we realise der r playing twister " sheila's stlye" it wuz really fun...den me n mariah played it..while we played we took lotsa funny pics..later i will upload it n put it der fer u guys 2 c..xD here is de score 4m de game dat we palyed..
-sheila vs. huey min : draw -me vs. mariah : i won...yay!!~ -me vs. mariah (round 2) : i won again!!~ -me vs. sheila : sheila won....>< -mariah vs. huey min: draw..
overall i won de most..yay me!!~ den we were so tired we juz hang around der.. later on me n huey min walk back 2 skol.. vivien juz went back oni..=.=" den chatted wif frens.. on de way back saw ct cy ch all.. ch pointed at me n all look.. shit~ zha lan dou.. i told dem i not goin out 2day.. =.=" sure kena zha wan 2nyte wen i go out wit dem... den went back home n went out fer dinner.. so tired de.. den went n make new specs.. dis time i making frameless wan.. hahaz.. xD den came home on9.. den amy called me..
okay now fer de other half dats not so gud.. aikz.... later on i sms wif my dear.. i suddenly felt dat i cant take dis anymore n i talked 2 him bout our relationship.. but it seems dat he doesnt really care at all... i wuz so fed up dat in de end i ask him fer break.. but he nvr ans dat question of mine although we r still chattin.. den i brought it up again... he said he dun wan 2 break wif me.. den i sms wif aishah.. later on i went out at nyte n meet wif my korz.. i left my fon at home so i din reply his msg.. i look real emo so my kor realised dat sumthing is wrong.. but sumhow i nvr told dem wat happen... feel lyk keeping it 2 myself... den went home bout 6+ in de mornin.. every1 is ade sleeping.. went 2 my room n i cried fer while oni.. i dunno but i dun really feel sad.. juz real emo oni.. =.=" its lyk i biasa wif dis couple n break up thing ade.. its lyk a daily routine or sumthin fer me ade.. suddenly fer de first time i had de feeling of giving up on luv all on ade.. now i understand wen ppl say dey wan 2 give up on luv.. cuz i m feeling it ryte now.. den de next day i checked my msg.. he msg me a few times.. he said dat he feel very said i nvre bother 2 reply him .. n dat he feel even more sad dat i dun love him anymore.. i cant reply him cuz fon outta credit.. surely he thinks dat i dun wan 2 talk 2 him anymore.. i m really lost n confused ryte now.. i felt so lost ade... i dunno wats my next move.. oni time will tell..
